Email I wrote to myself - from the past

Dear FutureMe, I'm feeling frustrated right now and like I'm behind in life. Feel like I'm not doing enough, not being enough. I'm also dealing with all of these feelings. Fear, anger, anxiety, frustration. I can acknowledge them but I can't seem to understand exactly where they are coming from. I am working on the job though. Working hard. Working creatively. And I am in love - love like I've never felt. Although I'm experiencing these feelings that I don't understand, I'm striving to be better and treat my love like it should be treated. With openness and with pureness and trust and excitement. Through all of this haze and dark though, I feel something good right around the corner. It's coming. I can feel it. It will be good. So for now, I will be here now. I will enjoy the love that I have in my life. Love that I need to work on with myself. Love with a beautiful and wonderful boy. Love with friends and family. Love, me