Christmas 2005

Dear FutureMe, Tonight I went to Farmer's for Christmas Eve. Megan didn't like any of her presents and Judy told her to get out. Aaron is hunting and says he hates Christmas. I think he has issues right now about wether or not he wants a future with me and is at home with his family for the holidays. He really does not like to mix me with his family, which worries me because I would like to marry him and start a family soon. I think my feelings for him are stronger than his are for me. Sometimes I feel so lonely. He never tells me anything. I am praying that he will go to Minneapolis with Scott, Ashley and me for New Years. I am pleased that I got a job at CCC Information Systems but will be upset if Aaron dumps me because it took me 4 months to find a job around here, when I could have gotten a job in Denver or Minneapolis. I stayed around here because I love him. I hope and pray that when I get this email my relationship issues will be ironed out and I will be a wife and mother. I really want to marry Aaron. Shawn Dec. 24 2005 11:13 pm 4 years since mom's death