A letter from July 23rd, 2019

dear sarah, it’s july 23, 2019. i’m using a website that will send me this in 5 years. how are you? do you still type in all lowercase letters? where are you living and are you still with justin? are you happy? do you miss justin if you’re not with him? right now i’m working part time at hobby lobby, living with justin at olde towne. i hate my job, i hate being poor, and i hate my brain. my mental health has been very bad lately. i just self harmed a few days ago even, after being clean for 7 months. i’m trying to work through my trauma and depression. it’s just so hard when i don’t even want to work on anything. i have no support, and i have a weak friend group. skyler, jenna, melana, ridgely, jaz, walker, kendall, hannah, ellie, bea, and mackenzie are my closest friends right now. i want to be happy. but that seems so unattainable right now. let me know how you’re doing. stay strong, please stay alive to receive this. if you feel worthless right now or like you can’t even get out of bed, just try. try for remi, try for jacob, try for danielle. i love danielle. she is moving to chicago in a few weeks. i will miss her so much. find some more music, perform somewhere. and get tattoos XD stay strong.