A letter from February 18th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Hello!!! How are you doing? Right now everything seems such a disaster. You didn't get the training that you wanted, but it's ok. Ok. No. It's not ok. You wanted it so badly bc you thought you'd get a feeling of satisfaction if you get that. You even cried. You were very frustrated. You were asking "what did I do wrong?" But you're fine now. Some people made you realize that it's ok to not get that training. That you are still someone they are proud of. And that you are still young and hundreds of opportunities await you. Maybe something better will come. You're not doing well on the procedure you're handling, but you'll get by it in time. You can do this. You got this. God's got your back. You like this guy so much. He said he's unfit for the love you are ready to give. But you know this is the time he needs you the most. I hope you'll be strong enough for him. You two might not be perfect, and it won't be an easy road but I hope you'll stand by your decisions. And I hope you get through all the challenges together. I believe there are times you are allowed to be selfish, and this is his time. There will also be a time when you need to be selfless and this is that time for you. Whatever it is he is facing right now, he is at his most vulnerable state. He is in pain. Understand him. This is a very difficult time for him, be there and don't add up to his frustrations. He needs your support. Lessen the drama. I'm pretty sure he'd spoil you and give you all the love you deserve once everything gets in to place. This time is his time. I hope by the time you read this letter, it's already your turn to receive all the love you need and deserve. Hold on self, I have a good feeling about this. I know, I SO KNOW EVERYTHING WILL BE WORTH IT. Love, Chin-Chin, 21.