A letter to you, from the you that you were at 21.

Sorry for long intro, and hey! How's you? How's 2020? Are you in Finland, or have you indeed moved away as you've dreamt of for so long? Anyhow... It's 2015, which still feels like a very modern year to me. I'm 21 years old, finishing my studies at the end of the year. Remember how much work you put into it? Jesus, it's about time we go through the finish line! So, put that all aside, how are you? How's Marvin the marvellous cat? How's your apartment do you still live in this one, your first own (rental) apartment? If yes, I hope you've decorated it far better than I have! These yellow sofas... wow... such taste. Well it's not like I have a choice, these were free after all. Do you do sports like you've said you would? Like seriously, take a grip and start working out! In fact, it's quite hypocrite to say that and not do anything about it, so yeah tonight I'll do the typical workout thing we do with them vids on youtube. They're actually quite tiring. IF you are athletic then **** go in front of the mirror and check out that bootay gurl! So enthusiastic... well but why wouldn't you have been? Right now in May 2015, your life is super, like really it is. The reason for that is well, you've learned to take obstacles in life and not give up the moment things get difficult. As mom used to always say; things have a way of working out, or in her very own words in Finnish "Asioilla on tapana järjestyä." So, I'm 21, life truly ahead of me. No longer a teenager I'm starting to like tasteful stuff in life (though I should tone down the makeup, I dunno why I've started to put on heavy makeup again, must be a phase). Like literally tasteful things such as good food cooked with effort and neat clothing, classy and all. I also dream of making this place look nice, trendy and all. Don't get me wrong, I started to sound like a self obsessed lunatic there; I still love gaming, still love internet and all the people important to me that I've met through it, still love reading, writing, singing, dancing, taking care of Marvin (god**** that cat is precious), listening to music and taking moments like I do where I try to let everything around me sink in and I try to live the moment longer just because living in the moment is often forgotten by us all with the goals of continuously wanting to better ourselves for the future. I say **** that, don't try to better yourself in ways that stop you from understanding the beauty of all that surrounds you. Friends, family, people (whom you have only now started to truly appreciate, no longer are you such a socially awkward penguin yay) and you better not value money for anything more than what it is, just a currency to trade what we need and occasionally want. Materialistic people are in your mind the worst things on this earth. So... you've gone through this and that in the past year, mainly with growing up and learning not to fully trust just anyone and that has made you stronger. I wonder how it is in 5 years time, when this letter arrives? Your heart has been shattered a couple of times, and I'm sure it will have been shattered a couple of more times by the time this letter reaches you, but I, you knew already at this young age how things are, how you can't let someone drag you down how nobody is really worth your tears like that. But you are allowed to feel sad, you're allowed emotions. Just don't get too emo on me, please. Your friends are trying for babies, and you still feel you don't want any and that is fine, and I somehow believe you won't have any kids at your age either, but if you do don't tell them you didn't want them - clearly if you have kids by the time this letter reaches, they were more than wanted. You're a smart girl, you know how to use protection. Last night/yesterday you spent 22h 50min on a Skypecall with Kevin. In 2015 you learned that the boy you threw away was someone you should have not, but it's too late. Then again, being friends with him is in fact one of the best things that could happen to you. Friendships, real ones, last a lifetime. Soooo tell Kevin I said hi, from the past. Ask him is he's still got the neverending moonwalk running on the background of his computer (I truly doubt it). Lasty, say "L0Z3R 4 LYPH!" and see the reaction. Should be spectacular. I hope you've gotten a better relationship to Toni, and that he'd still be together with Adele. She's such a nice girl and your friend. I also hope you still keep in touch with your mother dearest and father as well. If you've lost someone permanently, I'm sorry about that. You should remember the person they were and value the memories instead of fall into deep depression and all. It's more honouring to them if you smile at the times you had together, is it not? Lastly, if you've found love, hold on to him. Or her. You are still bisexual, are you not? It's not a phase like they said... right? But getting back to that; kiss them, hug them, tell them they are ever much so special to you. Right now, having been single - after a rather mild little relationship that didn't last and so I shall not even really count that - for the 2,5 years that has gone by, you're quite alright with how you are, BUT you do wish there was someone to hold on tight when falling asleep, or to greet (though Marvin does do this too) when you arrive home... Or to cook with, or share a movie with... You do want to share your life with someone, eventually. I think you'll find him/her. I think you'll find without looking, if you've not already. Please reply to me, and I love you so much (no **** xD yes, I had to say it, sorry!) Yours truly, Yourself @ 21 --- Letter sent on the 7th of May 2015 at 22:10