Thoughts from your past...

Dear FutureMe, I am currently typing this on the 15th of June, 2005. You probably will not remember ever having typed this at all, but I thing that it is best to reflect upon your past and I hope this will be an aid in doing so. You fucked up in college... fucked up really, really bad. Two semesters, only 16 credits, and don't try to justify that it was semi productive. You are trying extremely hard to get into the Air Force (well not extremely anymore, since that godsend of a job at Pactiv). Hopefully you and SSG.Cerat got everything cleared up before the fall, and if not, oh well. My biggest hope for you, though, is that you did get into the Air Force and that God watched over you. You have amazing potential, please don't let it go to waste. If you are still in the Air Force and doing well, great! If you have completed your mandantory 4 years and are at a still point in your life, take that G.I. Bill and try college again. You KNOW you can do it if you really push yourself. No more being a lazy, procrastinating loser. Actually go to your classes, take notes, study, and do your homework. If you didn't even get into the Air Force, I sincerely hope that you did something productive with your life. You were not meant to be just a factory worker your entire life. Your potential is tremendous, so take out some loans and go back to school part time. Do Something With Your Life. As for Amy and you, you know you had strong feelings for her, but with the potential for the Air Force, you had to let her down. Don't keep doing that to girls. I currently feel that sparks will fly when you meet that "one", so don't lose her. I sure hope that you have really cut back on the lying to better yourself in the eyes of others. It always was a bad habit, and you must have either developed it, or something (maybe Jake H.?) You currently feel lost in life, though somewhat content. The car is in someone good-working order, and everything is inspected and paid for (insurance, NYS inspection, registration, new muffler!) Just changed the oil a few days ago, gonna try and tackle the manual transaxle oil tomorrow. This new book, Kilo Class, is quite good, don't ever set books down. They keep you mentally fit. You really love America's Army and P.C. video games, and still are more into rap and hip hop than any other music genre. Don't lose your love for all types of music. Don't lose your love for theater. Don't lose your piano playing ablilities. You are truly talented, and mom and dad did a lot to secure a future for you. I hope you did well with it, and tried your hardest. Always love yourself, and don't ever lose your Faith. Sometimes, its the only thing you have... Goodnight, and pray... Me (You) :D