A letter from Oct 27, 2025

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I broke things off with vlad today. He went to his moms, hes coming for toby tomorrow probably. Im going to sleep at my moms. stephanie came over and hung out for a bit. we drank wine ate pizza, cried laughed farted. He was so special to me. But in the quiet moments when it was just me, I started to feel alone. Used after ***, bothering him when he was on his computer. He denied me kisses bc he just didnt want to kiss me. I got my peircing today. Nose ring left side bc i sleep on my right. I have no ******* clue what the future will hold, but I am on my own now. I have to pick myself up by the bootstraps. I provide for me no one else. I will find me not in men but within. I will find my motivation to be the best me, the one I only find in the cabins in Big Bear. You are my hope. I am holding out for YOU. Look around and tell me it gets better. I really need that right now.

Epilogue

3 days later

Hi kyla, belive it or not, sometimes, i miss YOU!! the whole world has just opened up to you for the first time, theres a crazy sense of...

Fmdeero in hatt. Lal yuo tba ikhtn eth eitm i. Ybe drmeereebm yuo ybto ot to asy i wihs. A ,ti no oigng i etg teerh aws tb,u tlo. Riay!dhtb it aws nuf enwt rfo os i gcmpina our. Qsoaesiu ti eht ta swa. I a acn us, epoh si siapeehnt i rfo rhe teg rmfo itsrhmsac ether tfig itlls uoy yaelrl godo. Nimgirnde hsatnk orf the nditd w vlad fo neriaothlspi ruo bta ngitsh em i lkei. Si to ni a saey !ehwp tsi rhtgi own, htnig sti rofegt odog whcih onw. I the ogod frouesco smnoetm eikl mnrmgbieeer. Lte ouy up yb eltl eht em sopsrbotat ipkc did yoresflu ,you yllear. Hadr hist gtha swa. U utb vyere ayd nad gto mweoosh to wkro etwn pu. Ervyihnget i sacniue,nr ngiypa otg mi my i vhea htbuog o!nw onw ofr padi i oomr in na,c llsti :) emro this tho my i agdnti atdstre htcib etg ehhtla. Hrda a eb sit nlaoe lelitt ot. Ubt ti nl,oeyl airese sgte tsi. Go laoen uto you. Omre apesce w h!o aveh ur ggoin it ru love ongna ot nw!o efrnisd ioshpe ouy. Nkghinti urtfeu brrmee i of me. Thsi teerlt ieradng. I eb oknw uodlw dintd i ehwre. I dah a yrllae ogod mrsemu ubt. Ehnoug yhsoletn i rneve teirw. Rfmo a atfs iekl ottunb ur i i for tich adfrowr ehop tdesisiaf cilkc btu,. Ouy esdever be phypa ot. Gihr,t elesf thaw xoxo do ot <3 leistn ru nda evlo !utg u idkdo.

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