A letter from Oct 02, 2024

Dear FutureMe, si sab ni, malamang HAHAHHAHAHA nd nako okay kapoy na ko, pero i will never give up, ga breakdown gd ko subong, i mean simo nalang ko ma open ha, bata pa ko, na pressure ko kag na singgit imbis na bulig kag pag inchindi, nahatag sakon ang material needs pero i feel empty gyapon, i like pink things with ribbons and girly stuff but, feel ko gusto ko lang na para ma hide ko bala ang tuod ko batyagan ga worry nako sa kaugalingon ko kay basi nd ko pag kayanon, i promised never to hurt myself, pero may ga hutik gd ya sa utok ko mag pa huway, a big part of me just want to be free by dying without hurting myself, i would want to go heaven today, i feel so exhausted i cry and cry but im still tired pf crying and i study and study but nothings going inside my brain because i know i needed rest and self time not high grades and perfect reputation, i know me, i know i would want that high school love too, i never showed because, i can never be seen as a "pabaya, lazy student, i know i would want to experience being called for trouble, i know deep down i wanted all those things in life. i got 1 mistake and im not even happy, but the girls at the back got only 1 right on a test, i knew they won, high grades never made me happy, my laugh was always been faked i really badly want to rest. wrote this with tears, hope your in better and nicer place