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Dear FutureMe, I hope this gets to me..where to begin? I hope by the time I get this, Jake and I are married. Do you even know him yet? Does he know you? You live together, you're having a baby..why do you feel so hopeless? If it hasn't stopped by now, make it. You're powerful and you've gotten through a whole hell of a lot before, so what are you waiting for? Scream at the top of your lungs how you feel and NEVER be ashamed. It's ridiculous to continue as you have been. Life can be a blessing..but you believe only you can bring yourself there. Do it..and do it right. You KNOW ALL OF THIS!!! Wake up! Do you even want to marry him? You've been married before, don't do it if you doubt it. YOU KNOW THIS! Think, girl, before you mess up again. You are beautiful, loved, and will rise to the top as long as you stay motivated. Stay motivated to succeed. Love, laugh, and tell Braydin you love him as much as you can..he is your light..and so is the one on they way. Hopefully you haven't miscarried and he/she is sitting on your lap as you read this with tears in your eyes. Hopefully Jake is still there with the three of you. Hopefully you and Keith get along now..ex husbands are horrible..but try your best. He's not all that bad..even if he does wish you a painful death. You loved him at one point..remember that..and he's Braydin's daddy. Love, you