me again

dear me, how's life treating you? for me, its going ok...been out of the hospital for a week now...we had viral menengitis, which is the better of the 2 menengitis'....brad is down in austin...fucker...he's leaving, i'm convinced he has the job...which is very very good for him...but very very bad for you...stop reading this right now and call him....he's a very good guy and he's in a terribly fucked up situation right now, but staying his friend is important, so do it, call him, i'll wait.... ,..how'd it go? i hope you were able to get in touch with him...as i write this he's in a bad place and i'm doing my best to put a bright spot into it...i also just got off the phone with him...he sounds excited...stay happy for him ok, even if he did end up breaking your heart... the family is good...dad found out last week he has to stay on chemo till november...it made mom cry....but at least he has the anti-depression drug, its helping keeping him sane, and therefore keeping us sane...ry comes home in june, and i'm scared to death of him leaving again, as it means he'll be on his way to iraq...marines have it hardest of all and the way ry is, he'll want to be front and center for everything...i'm so proud of him but so terribly scared at the same time...you and the parents haven't talked about it, cause it makes you all cry, but stop reading this again and go write him a letter...and draw him a pic, you know how he loves our stick figures... ben is over in iraq right now...its hard as hell...he's your best friend and its hard not getting to talk to him face to face...has he been home or did he go to australia with the bitch? how's the rest of the crew? hopefully tamaeka and the babies are doing great...i'm sure she's tired as hell...did she name #2 xavier? you and katie decided that would be a great name (even though it sounds similer to the other name)...how's katie's house? did nik ever move out? talk to them...they are the only ones outside of the family to make you feel special...those in the crew were the only outsiders to take our eccentricites and problems and love us anyway...call them...they need you as much as you need them how's work? as i write this i'm in training...fuck...its going ok, i'm a fast learner, but due to staffing issues i know its going to take a hell of a lot longer than anyone thought...did you get the sup job? did you decide to take it? i hope you were able to learn how to live your life around your stupid schedule... and i hope to hell you're excercising...the personal trainer thing is a wash, partly because im not putting heart and soul into it...remember running is your absolute best bet...get that down first then add weight training...otherwise you just bulk up and we are the only ones to understand that...you know your body best...just go with it remember also that i love you with all my heart...no matter who you turn out to be...just do your best and leave the rest up to fate...life is good...and it will all be ok in the end...if its not ok, its not the end...stick to your guns, stick up for the little people, stick by your loved ones...and take some chances for the love of pete...you won't get anywhere if you don't...leap and the net will appear ok...i love you