A letter from Aug 22, 2023

Peaceful right?

Am lost right now . am with someone who is everything that i ever wanted. he is exactly what i wanted, what i needed . but the road was not easy . things were never easy between us. am trying to put my faith in him to let go the past mistakes, but am afraid . i want to be with him, I want to let go everything like i did once before . but am afraid that this is not real . that its all in my imagination . a part of me wants to let go and fall deeply in love with him , but another part of me wants to be careful , and keep my distance ,and am lost in between .

Epilogue

9 months later

September 2024.

we took a leap of faith , we chose him .
he is...

Ehvregyint reev tabou i that dan eerdmad wtadne.
Sti my feli mih ilke i onti eemaiftdns.
Lwil otn ccmtoimmnasuoniis era , leif tbu be tihs,gf rlephisoatni tsth'a da,n gnlbuidi vaeh iths ear a shtign seinvdte lislt we oesm ew yfull tub adn rtehe ni ei,fl ysae oru nkow hatt lwil onw mlsla wsyala ni that we ttgeerho.
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He mnagea yaslaw ihm atht tlclaayu ierntgevyh mhi anc stpudi be i turts arondu fof dna dnow dan yas raibn lfee ym i to my ahtt , can rnut i lilw lsdseih faes hitw i elt ey,smfl.
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Svirvlua lnyo elfe of iekl dmo,o ahts't ubt cbseaue lstli on my i ma jbo.
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Utg leivs and uor sa,rohf letisnde leingfe fsrit rou llew we fo emti wlle ti ew ipad ot hesoc the.