A letter from July 31st, 2023

Dear FutureMe, This year, we've entered our first serious relationship. I finally found someone worth committing to, and this is huge for me. I mean, I'm a date to marry person. If I don't picture a future with them then I don't even bother dating. And I picture a nice future with Shawn. He's a very sweet, loving, caring, thoughtful every-nice-adjective man. i mean he has flaws, everyone does; but I can take him. When he's upset me, he makes up for it. When I have problems inside and out of my relationship, he listens and sees what he can do to help. Someone who's just happy to love me when I thought all my life I'm someone that's hard to love. He's really serious about me and cares for me in every way possible. I mean before him, he wasn't my usual type. But he's really cute. He's very simple on the outside, he's very um, minimalist. He's really tall too. That was actually the first thing I noticed about him. and then as our relationship go by, the more I get to know him. Then I see he's actually got nice lips, he has nice shoulders and he's got a nice smile, he's just really pretty to my eyes. Aside from being very emotionally connected to each other, there is also very strong attraction between us two. We're just in love with each other as a person and this love is new to me. I never experienced love like this before him. I did fall for people beforehand, even with flaws and all, I sticked with them. Maybe I'm not that matured with my past people that I loved, But all I knew is it didn't work out, and I'm glad it didn't. Because I get to meet the best boyfriend ever and my favorite human to exist. I don't know what state you and shawn both are in right now. And tbh, I'm scared of thinking what could even happen a year later. I'm thinking all things negative and my mind is constantly thinking of scenarios on how could our beautiful relationship could possibly come to an end. I mean, I don't wanna break up with him. But who can tell the future right? I'm even thinking the worse, what if one of us dies? I mean, we're all meant to do so in the first place. Or what if we grow apart or grow tired of each other? These are just few of the scenarios that could happen. But hey, if every of those negative outcomes have a possibility of happening, then the positive outcomes are very likely to happen as well. The things I daydream about might turn to reality. We could continue this love, grow together, and eventually get married. build a famiy and grow old together. Either way, I'll always be happy to meet him and having him in my life is the luckiest thing I've ever experienced. I'll forever cherish him. P.S. To future Karol and Shawn, take care!!