A letter from Jul 07, 2023

Dear FutureMe, How are we doing? I hope well. Did we shifted already? It's been 5 months from the first time We tried to shift... Is fictional still our favourite song? Do we still have a crush on HIM? How is school doing? Actually I'm not writing this letter to ask you things, in fact, i wanna write about what is happening in our live. Today is the seventh of July. It's summer! Even if I don't like summer, I love hanging out with my friends, and i would hang out with them every day, only if they ask me tho. You see, they call me only when there is no one to call. They go out every Friday without me and that makes me feel very anxious and like I've done something wrong and bad. I feel like a total fool for falling for their stupid joke. My only real friend lives 250,8 km away from me. It feels like the hole world is falling on me. I was thinking that this was going to be my best summer, that i would go on bike rides at sunset with my friend group and have deep talks during the night, like in the films I've been watching since 5 years old. But hey, I didn't cut myself again! I mean, i stick my nails in my wrist but i'm trying not to do that. I've recently reurrned at my house from summer camp. I'm not saying home 'cause my home is my summer camp dorm room where my friend, my non-blood related family is. I think i said everything so the last thing: remember that in this world there is someone that loves you no matter what. Xoxo 8th grade you P.S.: It was so hard writing in english, in fact I didn't even used google translate. I didn't wrote this in italian because I'm planning to put this letter on public.