A letter from Jun 10, 2023

Dear Future John, Life is complicated. I'm still struggling with my identity and this stuff, high school is overwhelming and I can't really find time for myself, and honestly, I don't think I want to. I started some writing projects and I'll try the scholarships to summer programmes in the UK again, I have almost two months to write the essay that will get me there, I have hopes, my abilities in writing, especially in English have improved a lot, I think I'll do great. I really want to leave the country. Mom and Dad are fighting again, our sister is passing by and she's just, so controlling with me sometimes, and she's just not helping in their situation. Everyone freaked out on Dad's birthday and they all shouted some really bad things that I don't want to remember. My dream of doing drama classes is still around, but Dad is short on money, but he promises me he will find a way soon. I don't believe him, he never keeps any of his promises. Sometimes I just want to scream John, I just wish they stop fighting so much. I just want someone to hear me. Btw, yesterday I went to watch Spiderman Across the Spiderverse with my friend Henrique and Dad took us, it was amazing, I think I never felt so alive in months, not because of the movie, it wasn't that good, but bc Dad took us to an Old Arcade and it was so cool, I haven't seen my dad smiling so much for so long. Good look for me and you in the future, I really hope things get better. And we WILL get that scholarship and leave the country, I have hopes.