A letter from Apr 04, 2023

Dear FutureMe, How’s life? I am ok. Or trying to be ok. I’m happy tho. The happiest I’ve ever been. But that happiness brings other stuff with it. I’m stuck in the middle. As usual. I’m stuck in the middle between two of the most important people in my life. They’re not fighting or anything, but they’re not on the best terms. They never were. I can never talk about my happiness with him to them. I feel like they don’t care. But I listen to their happiness or about what bothers them for hours. Or he could be showing me something about his friends or talk about his friends and I would listen and laugh with him. But he stops looking immediately when I try to show him something funny about them. I wanna share my happiness. It hurts me. I thought everything got better. I became happier. But now other stuff became problems. I want both of those in my life. But they don’t want each other. Can’t they just be happy for me. Can’t they do that for me. I’m scared to talk about them to them. I’m scared they’re gonna start insulting. Why do they have to do this. I hope it gets better. I can’t deal with this my whole life. It hurts me. I don’t want problems between them. Pls tell me that it gets better. And don’t come to me with bad news. See u in a year.