A letter from April 2nd, 2023

Dear FutureMe, who knew i could still make it another year? in this same day 2 years ago we met, ain’t that something i never wanted to live this day again without him but here i am for the 2nd time. T W O times! i wish you asked about me once. you never did and probably never will i’m tired of this every day i say to myself i need to move on that it that’s enough! but i can’t i just can’t delete the pictures or the memories. even if i did they will haunt me every day in my mind, it won’t change. like won’t change i’m giving up so badly. i shouldn’t but i am my parents are literally living hell to me rn my mom wants me to throw away ash, my dad is threatening me if i don’t put the hijab he’ll throw away ash. my sister is hitting him and wanting him gone. why why why why?! what did this cat do to you? he’s nothing to you but he’s everything to me and i won’t let him go no matter what OVER MY DEAD BODY. you saw me happy with something for once you want to take it away? no happening NEVER! idk how your doing but i’m crying everyday before sleep it’s ramadan now but idk it feels so weird i didn’t want to be here anymore it’s way too hard. tell me about your struggles and what’s your life like 6m later. may not make it