A letter from March 12th, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so sad right now. I feel like everything in my life that could go wrong, is going wrong, which might sound like an exaggeration to you in 6 months, but at least you know where i’m coming from. We’ve got important tests in May/June, which I feel like have come far too quickly. By the time you get this letter, you’d have already done them, hope everything went well, and that you are relaxing so much, we need it. We have a job which feels like the worst thing on Earth, but the money is the only thing enticing me to stay. Well, I should say “did entice me”, bc currently I decided to quit. I’ve got a shift tomorrow, hopefully I quit then, as planned to. I guess you’ll know the answer to that. On the brighter side, we have good friends! I hope our friendships are still as strong if not stronger, because I don’t want to lose anyone. Well, other than that *one* person, I hope you tell me all about them in 6 months. Do we still talk to them? Did something large happen like a fight? I hope so, but only because it would be funny. Not much drama happens in my life anymore. Bit of a weird subject: what about our fashion sense? Do we still have the same weird emo thing going on, or have we finally decided to wear colour? I really hope you are enjoying yourself, and that you are happy. It’s been a really rough couple of months, starting this new school has just started the domino effect of life crashing down. You know, some days (like today) I feel so dramatic saying that (and i know you will probably cringe or something) but other days i think it completely true. I’ve slowly become my biggest critic and enemy. I feel like I can’t even do anything without berating myself and making myself feel guilty. I hope in the near future, everything feels fine. We don’t have to be completely cured or sorted out - ready for life and all that jazz - but I hope we just feel fine. I also hope our relationship with our mother is good, lately it’s been getting better and I would hate to see it plummet or smth. You have to keep going, even though some days you feel like you have 0 motivation, you have to keep going. For me, and for everyone else in your life. You’re not alone. You will be in Year 13. Hold out for a little while longer. Remember how good life will feel when we are rich and happy and healthy. I hope you have a hobby too, god KNOWS you need one. PLEASE STOP PLAYING GENSHIN IMPACT! From me. Or you. Us?

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

Who the fuck made you inspirational quote of the year?
We are in year 13. I don’t know why you thought it would be a calm, relaxing walk in the...

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Rmeo iade dnee oyu ifpcscie have no no are n*e*o uyo esropn ot iwchh i eb a,utbo elsnoyth. Alth,houg erlayl iutqe satt’h nnufy. Ti tub usseg a you lnoy i gueav teh kwon, htat ttah i itm,e i yslnaintt os aveh earlnpvet eadi eumsads uwldo was at. Onacsevotrs)ni to t’is rdkwawa no gifth mteh tiwh ew tlils do il(abet ltka asit,redn herte inihgknt woh nda fi m’i wsa o,f. Nailntf,ncotoaro rea adn not we uoy atth wokn. ’ntdo a ,aosl i,htfg yuo tno trlyu orf eohp. Aekm sda udowl yuo ti.
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Am a uoy dorsw icnnirgg i iekl ta kobo, ared yuor me. Elef od ttah tath to twire ’mi i feel tub is utaob idd dgnahec fn,ie hitognn so has i p,tsa do hte fen,i hypap oyu eltpmyocle eedfrftni ingothn ,onw we. Ruo ruo ihwt adn d,oog omhet?r its’ h’sse hortem. ’astht oogd orf uhnoge em.
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Tnhki ever cuhs i’ve a tihs i d’tno ot had idas sntrinipaoi tieuq ee…hr kile yclutlaa uoy entircoa awht. To fomr leysf,m a tpoesr enefirfdt hatn st’i l,meyfs iegrhan it. Haev iwth sa oswdr uyo wya nad a lvdia uroy ehav go ord,ws dbe, of s,cki ti ma i ni i losohc was )arenso, a tawinng nito mi’ daregni now u!to (i ubt to ont wdorek,. M“i idd a n,ed touhhgla i eht avreolntie, ikel si i,t n”a,loe oldt tihs ingbe taht on’tw i uyo i uhmc oto unir wen o’tdn ta gusse iont lasdy go utb ton. .
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Arye im’ tcpunrigi dan ew ayhpp fle,i hsti! do seuoh a sldoa 31, fo ruo yethlah igb wiht ynoem anc nda. Hte yh(,e we klta uatob em rpuod s’tin no stuj uoy atht esecbua tdpisu we a win, eb aer ot atht aevh me t’ahts eihngsn a yi,pt dehcli sitll of ym not tgo uyo ybhob, ckly?u we to neam hte but liek fro nad 500/5 gaem bewl tma,pic a,emg ahtt h’astt atreruq of - !pp)a oynme fnnuy eahv ealry otnd’ wlo a ntuqiitg of lbomerp ruetuf. Oto ni raf. .
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Kbac ot e,m mfro ouy.

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princyblogz:

almost 2 years ago

Pls post the epilogue and link it as a separate letter 😭😭. I wanna read it so bad because of the “who tf made you inspiration queen of the year” LMAOO

sumayyafayziddin:

almost 2 years ago

Were the "important tests in may/june" your as/a levels by any chance? I know how you feel cause i went through it too but with gcses, and you're right, they did come way too quickly but look we made it 🙏 🙏 got my results and I passed all of them. Now I have no clue what to do next and I'm so lost but hey, we just keep trusting that everything will work out somehow. I hope your results were good and wish you gl with year 13, dw we got this 🙏

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