A letter from March 12th, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so sad right now. I feel like everything in my life that could go wrong, is going wrong, which might sound like an exaggeration to you in 6 months, but at least you know where i’m coming from. We’ve got important tests in May/June, which I feel like have come far too quickly. By the time you get this letter, you’d have already done them, hope everything went well, and that you are relaxing so much, we need it. We have a job which feels like the worst thing on Earth, but the money is the only thing enticing me to stay. Well, I should say “did entice me”, bc currently I decided to quit. I’ve got a shift tomorrow, hopefully I quit then, as planned to. I guess you’ll know the answer to that. On the brighter side, we have good friends! I hope our friendships are still as strong if not stronger, because I don’t want to lose anyone. Well, other than that *one* person, I hope you tell me all about them in 6 months. Do we still talk to them? Did something large happen like a fight? I hope so, but only because it would be funny. Not much drama happens in my life anymore. Bit of a weird subject: what about our fashion sense? Do we still have the same weird emo thing going on, or have we finally decided to wear colour? I really hope you are enjoying yourself, and that you are happy. It’s been a really rough couple of months, starting this new school has just started the domino effect of life crashing down. You know, some days (like today) I feel so dramatic saying that (and i know you will probably cringe or something) but other days i think it completely true. I’ve slowly become my biggest critic and enemy. I feel like I can’t even do anything without berating myself and making myself feel guilty. I hope in the near future, everything feels fine. We don’t have to be completely cured or sorted out - ready for life and all that jazz - but I hope we just feel fine. I also hope our relationship with our mother is good, lately it’s been getting better and I would hate to see it plummet or smth. You have to keep going, even though some days you feel like you have 0 motivation, you have to keep going. For me, and for everyone else in your life. You’re not alone. You will be in Year 13. Hold out for a little while longer. Remember how good life will feel when we are rich and happy and healthy. I hope you have a hobby too, god KNOWS you need one. PLEASE STOP PLAYING GENSHIN IMPACT! From me. Or you. Us?

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

Who the fuck made you inspirational quote of the year?
We are in year 13. I don’t know why you thought it would be a calm, relaxing walk in the...

Rkap. Hte eayr iflan sti’. Panpniheg hte hnnotgi erya lrea :laev-sel uor bzreey eehr fo teh e!!sno!!. E’iv bysu dha adn eekw, edryala nbee tnah slse tsi’ a teuqi. .
Em keam ot uoy see das dsoe it sda. It sdrwo rwied kmase konw lislt hetes em ear feel i tub ,nime. I sfylme teeidps tiirgnw who it ot,g hsit erenv esgsu i ladersie bda. Rae but sa torms illst ti fo eey teh own ikel ew fo sad, bedriesc i’d the. Ew ltlis aer tub on,w it ni khtci lacm rigth ’sit.
Emht uro we mrnt‘oapti adybl te,sts’ dlieaf tauob iuqte. Uor enosvir fo ewll, ladife. By eevn we dsanadtr, did ryoopl eth. Of lrwdo teh eht as’wtn it b,ut dne. As ckpi godo to atth ew lcask eahv wlil ofr the you os n,iu oyu atht heva ppodrd,e outlhgah yforl,arihlic ekat pu i tepcdderi gdares lltsi wno. A astp do dan me nnhgti)o know em ailgbmn iojgkn, ilwl (mi’ sa lyno i tno howle a.
Crmha uro tuhtgho did ont arebufyr i swa it uitq ob,j ni thaulogh ew. Edno yuo it wlel htiw ktigisnc rof. Iuyltg at ghtir it laset ogdo saw doswr a nto dan spto eeosuvsrl rae uaolhhgt o,csdniie lreosvesu )emni eaitrnbg fele fomr h,nkti hnitgs ayw uoyr( i kaimgn su the ,onw dnti’d ti iwth. You gebstig i ir,tcic ellt onw.
I mero uyo to nlhteyos nseorp aide eb icwhh oyu on oaut,b on o**en ende ear sfiipcce ahve. Tat’sh ayrlle itequ glohhuta, nnyfu. Ta ti i asw tub mit,e pveartlne veah hte you odwlu ussge sliyntatn htta i ttha augev os medsasu iaed kow,n a nyol i. No o,f we twih owh asw lslit mi’ ti’s labt(ie htem lkat nad do irtnd,sea ntighkni ot ereht otneisno)vcrsa awkwdra if hftgi. Konw ont oyu ew iaotrcfnao,oltnn dna are htta. D’nto itgh,f l,aso a peoh rof not oyu lrtuy. Sad uoy kema it lowdu.
Ti…s’ ?snese ofinhsa. Dnieptelg. Ingog rmoe d’i and htohalug still tteber syad dsrcbeei sa on, ediwr ascbi days htne osem ,sey aer ght?o ahnt atybabb sth,eor ihontglc n,olram dan is htngi etroh it ’sit meo. Alkbc sjtu rcolu,o no. .
Rsdwo me oyu eadr a nngricig eilk b,oko i at ouyr am. Lfee idd ahtt do yuo tnonhig fi,en to do hinntgo tub we lepyletmco si dneirtfef atht hsa ,tpsa phypa egadnhc eth i i otbua n,ow eiwrt ’im e,inf so leef. Oetmh?r our our hotrem dan ’essh ,ogdo whti ’sti. Oodg heonug ht’tsa orf me.
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Hawt to rhe…e rvee i adsi ctneiora lkei had khint auyllcta opsrnniiait you ’dnot hsuc a eqtiu hist ’eiv. Si’t tnah yef,msl mfle,ys hnraige rpotse ot ti ndfieertf ormf a. In have swa uyro deb, whti owdrs dreigan ti og iskc, divla (i arsneo), noti nto hocslo i ubt ut!o a now i nda eavh oyu er,okwd to of m’i sd,row anwtgni a awy as ma. Agohulth idd iton ti, oyu seugs lonae,” e,nd ont i mcuh a og sith si i“m btu ,ieanlovert enw slayd at todl i too ttha i rnui lkie neigb td’on ’wotn eht. .
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Reay hpypa and fo a gbi adn 13, dloas uro hit!s we ohseu niticprgu wthi efil, ethhlay moyen do mi’ nac. A ikle iduspt agem, 5500/ that aer ot eb for klat have onmey of aemn uyo of bwel and hcledi i,ytp tai,pcm olw of em klucy? o’dnt gtntquii vahe he,y( ym atth usjt lislt aecsbeu em oyu the ahtts’ a ew we iw,n to on yeral ubt atth uoabt rodup hginsne eht utearrq erfuut tog agme nyfnu otn shatt’ ew polebrm ntsi’ a ppa)! b,byoh -. Ni oto afr. .
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Ot fmro bcak ,me uoy.

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princyblogz:

almost 2 years ago

Pls post the epilogue and link it as a separate letter 😭😭. I wanna read it so bad because of the “who tf made you inspiration queen of the year” LMAOO

sumayyafayziddin:

almost 2 years ago

Were the "important tests in may/june" your as/a levels by any chance? I know how you feel cause i went through it too but with gcses, and you're right, they did come way too quickly but look we made it 🙏 🙏 got my results and I passed all of them. Now I have no clue what to do next and I'm so lost but hey, we just keep trusting that everything will work out somehow. I hope your results were good and wish you gl with year 13, dw we got this 🙏

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