A letter from March 3rd, 2023

Dear Me..... Do I juggle too many people? Do I work too hard to get on everyone's side? Am I selfish for wanting to be somebody to everybody? I am a stand in, a bestie stand-in. I am a sad little rug soaking up everyone else's blood and tears. And I won't always succeed in my job of fixing, and I fear the day someone breaks and shatters. Every time I find a new scar or am let in to see the inner damage of one of my self appointed charges, I fall apart. It breaks my heart. Because It's a constant reminder that I am not a long lasting fix. Just a little safe haven. So, if you ever feel alone, or need fixing, or help to feel less alone or forgotten for a while, I guess turn to yourself. Because we seem to be a good enough fill-in for everyone else.