A letter from February 1st, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...

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Etrwi i d’ton. All ta.
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Rdgirdgenais abkc twne eth tabou semyur nerev i qouitsnes ecseabu.
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Nlmate splsitaoh. Stpd no. M’i sey ubt s,pdt drteiegrg elwl nto. Ot hc iaplhots ntwe tneucctncoi ackb in veren i. Itnhk enbe nscie i ewtro ro 6 i e’iv 5 own htis to. Niaev asw i wwo so.
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Omved avhe soesuh tno.
61, het tog 71 won penohi.
Dipceasnm no.
Ided rgeta mgarnda amy alts.
Ngendi trleets ,ayeh otn’d i ahtt mnid eht. Eorm oewlh triew i ot have ym fiel.
Ont ceeubsa ymoatan itrwe to htgir nhitcwga uecinotn awnt swa and m’i r’syge i nda own to bkac ogign. Yuo twaden to d,id i tub i csbeeua me konw. Ym lefs eerrdpap tpas be adn i xent omcse up hug giev dan bleuck rfo codul i sya ahwt nad swhi a. Acseueb dolcu ubt enbe anwnrig e,m ltteil a reapepr ncie wuold ahev ntinhgo. A oga i arey pu owlb idd aay,cutll ottkki no. Bcka mr,naeettt ni eth ogt enoc vgilin apst as i bcka ni mrof nhdishtg,i aws i okol i. Rgnow i pu, of tsro neeoryve eflt i asw eraldeiz adh iehdbn and. Ielk 3022 13 lod a from yera. Ilnut i it a eaiezlr adn etarl year dt’din. Elirofp i dna oen 2022 ntggeit adn gniahgnc ptieucr i mmrbreee hmoe rfom my to badry of. Swa ti 2520. Dha i fo on dha pothos gotinhn tbu i eslf,my. Areziel ti nt’ddi 2220 dna t’wsna i aorynme. Ohwttiu me eoelpp veomd on had. Ohgur aws ,wyaasny tath. Ikttko peoclu metsi i krow a go nhtki on ot nad etdri i ti vlair did. Yrzac thhogu gntohni. Llo noctacu teh ogt kdehca dlasla. Isllt ni tsi’ canih up urn soem yb aksehrc but. Tbu i to’dn tis’ tyeh intkh ospt nuynf. Be tihs omes euoyr’ a gstnhi si panhep nriesveu trehe hatt prlellaa aoyk drgeian loy’ul awy sujt fi ,ewitc in ro hrwee ownk. Mkae ti lilw ouy tuo and. Eb dyeenftiil erteh oyu tmise liwl ,tuo ti ’ullyo utb lilw yuo hnkti t’nod ewrhe kame. Ddi i uacebse do ?kwno owh dna i ti. Pseeted itesm i eth ym uot eilf dratkse mdea of ti of. Si tpecerf rtghi it nwo not. Lla ta. Itb one ont. Tlsil heav stlgguers i yanm. Neo im’ kwno rfo wtha but i at terulgaf for do it ot nto ehav that i do aceuseb ktoo i dan dgtnaer, won tniop. Csayr si so eifl osooooo. Tuhtr sti’ hte. ,og roduan vhae nda on peopel ot eht eht is etbgigs ylon tsuj but pphea,n but peek to lt,aliuemty si euceasb ere,daln cunto ouy fyurelos htsnig thta evre cmoe skcit pesonr uoy ’vei and om,givn elsnso. .
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Uyo ovel i.
Off isgning.
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- ,th6 m535p: reagn,oig 2620 archm.
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