A letter from Jan 18, 2023

Peaceful right?

Hey my cherished future self, Mwah mwah it’s ur past self, how you’ve been? What r u up to now? What kind of adventures are you doing right now? I wish you nothing but the best. As of right now, I’m struggling through several day long stomach ache with a hard lesson not to abuse my stomach and be careful with what I eat on daily basis. It’s snowing…AGAIN. Winter back at our old home on the mountain is nothing like winter in midwest. I’m slowly going crazy in this place but at least, I’m warm, having roof over my head, and internet access. So, small victories for that. My savings has taken a huge hit after we moved here, I’m sure you’ve found job and is job jumping like usual. But I got to ask you if you managed to get car this year? Or at least getting closer to that goal? I still want car so badly even tho insurance and maintenance are a thing. I want my freedom. How about training and doing some Marathon, and working out in swimming pool? I want to do that, but with ***** going on, it seem difficult but I’m slowly getting there…slowly. I don’t know what I expected when I moved here, but it’s nothing like I’ve expected, this state is kind of boring, but hey, at least we got this year and onward to work on ourselves and figure out how to best improve ourselves and get our future set and in order. I know one thing for sure. Progress will be made in 2023. We will be better off financially at end of year, better off spiritually and emotionally, we will be more aware, and crush our shadow selves. It’ve been tough and rough. But I’m slowly taking it one day and step at time. Hopefully by end of year we have better progress on our writings to show for it. In the beginning of 2022, I have zero idea what to expect from future. And in the beginning of 2023, I have some ideas and desires, and hopes. Especially regarding writing, homesteading, and traveling (No idea if this year has travels in store for me, but I’m always open to opportunities, now that I have license…) I hope by 2024, I’ll have a foundation built and working toward something. I want to be the most lovely version of myself by the time I meet her. But at same time, I’m in zero rush, now I know I have a long list of goals and wants that I want to achieve in this lifetime. Being single can be incredibly awesome at times. I’m sending you so much love and hopes. And I’m hundred…no thousand percent sure that you’ll effortlessly conquer 2023, regardless if it’s grand and obvious, or simple and steady progress and before you know it, it’s over with. Go forth into 2024, my beloved, Go forth with my will, faith and determination, we got this ****. Always. We’ll make it. From your past self, 23

Epilogue

about 24 hours later

Hello, my dear past self!

I know you had some aspirations and hopes for 2023 but you weren't sure what you're in for, but let me tell you how incredible...

Us asw ot 2320. . . Lewl i umnrtossfei msut oesm eshra sa wthi. .
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Ew yare ehrto eremermb tahn sert eht atth ttepicoasnd oru i sesuis eno hte cahtsmo ucklyli chaotms ltae ni eilk ehca 2023 razcy we lw,el rof vrye vhae weer tmei uasul cexpet tath 'tddin of. .
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My ianteg bshati i dna omes osme to nbee dan hvae etetbr nto igtnptu i'ndtd ti's in ddi wheer yads reewh yads ubt i as wll,e 'vei teher ate ,llwe ilheetarh ertfof aet peidmvor aenil,r erew. .
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Hsti that grnow also sraey to i to us nrtegaveoi ptu baell was tuo gdlgurset reifudg elba we oddie,srr tgnih of ltnui faert s'want hsit oesmtighn oiwgknn reya a thwi cvpumesiol tiwh tbu. But ewr'e si lful ughrny ecfeptr e'ewv secods,n og w'eer ihtw and eheirt, fro aknscs or veaoetr rarlye tslil i mrevdpoi a nlessu emssmeito uhtroghtuo nutil not dnadiltoai adn otl nyol ai,gna dsya rsogrpes tea tshi. Eerfw sil,tl deus be esoht to rea htna dysa raf ti. .
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Ot ss,rtei siagvn did ahd ehom acr reay ehav a opiiriesrt but to orf sa prsek, oy,u neev esva far ta ob,j etarf usnre a is hte grgeib i twhi on gtitpun kopehuseree ruyo taps pcetoelmly uyo, senci tunuaoerfnlty ouy heav btu ew uoy t,ey i'm ensw oyru ceirbldein a hsit than frmo atht aidgrnni aiznmga a obj rof i gdnaame it doog ,arc v'ewe hte adn nda ni aesid ermo a tog ptoin roworb hnta ot. .
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Kema eanpgsic ouy aehd ishpclay dofreg sjtu htearr ni you hiwt arc ot dermfoe rflousye anligve uyo ryou td'nseo mfdroee taht hte cmeo orfm from er,ef itsfr altenm hvae scabeeu ahs atnh nad arleetib si ryuo rvcea sporni to. Ciaheevd htsi 'eevw nda to odpru sya ormedef 'im hatt. .
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Resexcie ti tihw job 'itddn moaswee ofalunettynru saychpilyl but we a htis hueg hnuoeg clliuyk so tciaev yesadt obj otn for ,gto to su oebrpml up eahv etmi edend we egbin iwht ew tsih. .
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Uotelrnosi eontf fcmtoro ttha os tge veyr rae uto did ni rouy ath,t now ot wne uoy nntmoie in ndd'ti tes and ouy su teh xeenaddp omfotrc oefotarlcmb ingths fro 2320 tiwh htat tihs zon,e hatt eetr,tl fo m,cuh ew ozne rou ew. .
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Anapmigc od nwo fo & eaftr nugndeo anmgpiac an nfilayl to ot enloin ,atht aengmda ogln eebclridin ewre' ogdnra of eiyklebw emtes jino tapr meit dna we ngnaiwt tath. .
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Ew cna ot btu salte do ecfnhr ew ni darbi wiuttoh ta shit hrai, how oru nelatr sosveeulr cumh guesltrg not rsitf laep,c. .
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Ntio got seceabu oekrb pu, be and hdeusr eeazdrli rsfit we fro rhleinistaop uyo wteand erve mite yuo ot yuo 'tdidn frrinldieg ni.
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Aurstam npuo yuo uro itcdinlfe in of a eabusd we tath ia,elzedr 'ist ti eubda,s adn ayko hist sa redeliaz ew ot hogeun eth skahtn daifar uerasb too us, that lorupfwe wree fo that efacd we erotnah lvoe su usnfregfi hte rodw nto fo ew sit(h went yhet bnige lleab defein ksrtdae teh ot si it drwo ghtni ghou,thr si weer is rtnogs ot all sscpeat su,vreosel. ).
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Ingtiwr ethm nfilayl moes to nirdielbec ahlenegcl rofwheiooancurv dna berav nhuoge dna llskis etrwo tspdeo ew to oru nsfcafi cmabee. Adnige unrter nda celrneibdi rog some ni fndrsie. .
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What thna edus iesdrfn uyo etarg yuo sonconenict in ****** thiw to to arreth sutdnoredo amens esdrnif eb evah it lniovg. .
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Pedleh thiw atht nipa ceom osme uhmc ridcseno ot arrc,die of os us iarsemescept teh nad we i we hmte ortew yetrop merst. .
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Nribugn yuo aayw yopert teh oewrt ermts tm,he uoy fo uryo fo wtha nad napi redrrefe to yb rsfit ryae htiw came sthi that yver dan to ot you ewtor ilanf ltreet eht 5 hnpdeepa lfyailn srueab g,ao ttha nad enedd eh,mt opyrte ,wrroos ycecl aerft eetbnwe yuo. To leccy a ahs biuafetlu cloes htat amce lnalyif. .
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Ibg anbg eldippa uyro scteols lcepuo hitw a fo uryo owt fitrs esinfrd to eznis nad yuo nioejd alliyfn dnfmoa of. .
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Kloo teg how so ie,nntmo uoy eusvlseor ,nwo oyu had mhuc ot at ayerln ouy feel oevl itwh pyllhsiacy, hitw meos i we new urnurdos nda nad pnki to a shtelco nwo efle in onduf we hemo eancch ttrogfnoe n,i igtrh oserfylu sassgel ikel i who m'i. .
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Wita to see 0422 hwat yera and i ash fro thsi esrto ni bene n'atc whtrgo me of erinbdlcie ash. .
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Ekarb i elayrn hre hwit cnaerc tgo teh ruyo yhriabdt as sa utb renptes muts ,ouy 3220 ot ahtrriknegaeb degsdnaio ensw eitssr ddi,e. Honuge ew rhitg the sier ss'eh will be rof i ot knwo eher yrc d'nto lliw kepe ot srognt lenac,lhge ryujneo aimylf roghu nde, dan onritgppus htis shti etryagd pu nad hse eb beuseac otn iafadr nad ruo rhohugt her veiger but no sith cinh is esivvru oyru htis iths lliw eb ot y,uo so. .
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Ryae of ilwl a itno i 4220, 2402 twih fra lwli alslh be htta ti fothr cefonneicd hwo in so, 2320 eilbrencdi sparuss og. .
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Crehhis oryu dna will 0223 ym nokw aspt ot pu rof oyu hinc taht fl,se oyu binslssge namy epek nigbr dvebleo. .
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L,oev tiwh.
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Oruy lefs uftrue.
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