A letter from Dec 30, 2022

Dear FutureMe, lately i’ve been thinking that maybe, I haven’t found someone by my side is because of that I hate myself sooo much that I can’t see someone showing interest towards me and even if there is someone I feel disgusted and turned off so much its because I just can’t, I have too much confidence but with low self esteem its so sad, I thought i’ve healed, i’ve been confident on showing my face, fixing myself but all is that I needed for validation… I think its also because i can’t trust people that easily, i know it will take a long time but no one is willing to do that without the thought of being together at the end first, I wanted it to be totally not expected all a coincidence to just met be friends get to know each other without thinking of being together the first time talking, it needs to grow first to know. yun langg thought of the night.