A letter from Dec 29, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hi aspen. this is basically going to be me putting down all my new year’s resolutions and seeing how they turned out. alright. so last night i decided to start journaling while i was rewatching greys anatomy. (while were on the topic have you rewatched or watched any other shows?) how have you kept up with journaling. over the summer, was it just what you were hoping for all year? did you get the bag and journal you wanted? did you finally get the summer body you wanted? i really really hope you did. finally, how did it go with xander? last night i had a suuuupppeerrrr long conversation with zosia about how i felt and i finally told her everything. i already talked with xander about most of it but i lied a little and said things were almost ruined and that everything is all good. truth be told i do want to be in a relationship with him how it was this summer and beginning of the year. yk with all those nerves and excitement. so my current plan that i came up with with zosia is to wait out january and see how it goes. what i really want to do is bring back my old motto from last year, fake it till you make it because i’ve seriously forgotten about it this year and ill start trying a lot harder with him hold off until summer. ill have mine and his birthday with him and prom and valentines and all that and ill try really hard to make the most of it for him and me and if i feel the same as i do now ill break it off before summer starts and try super duper hard to make sure we stay friends for the next school year. the friends thing happening is super uncommon and if i were to try it rn he fs wouldnt want it. anyways this is a lot like journaling but easier because i dont have to worry about my handwriting. speaking of, if you stayed journaling like i hoped, how is your handwriting now? is it all cursive like i wanted but like readable and does my hand still get impatient? also how long did it take for you to save up for a car? how much was it? do you love it? is your license picture good? please please say it is. and do you still work at the breakfast club and love it? as of rn ive only had the one training day but it was everything imagined and more lmao. i loved it so much. dave told me this morning that my paycheck is ready for me to pick up. it’ll probably just be like $60 because i didnt work a full shift and i only got like a $2 tip and the pay is pretty low without tips lol. but idc. its more than what im making now and i genuinely enjoy it. im trying to decide rn if i should send this in 6 months or a year. honestly all these questions only need 6 months for an answer. because you would get it the end of january and i think that would be perfect. and id like to know these answers like asap. if you end up finding any super natural lmk about that too okay. alsoooo did your skin clear up over break and did you keep it clear? i really hope the last time you touched it was last night when i did. obviously if you had *** with xander or anyone else or even kissed anyone else you gotta tell me. am i missing anything? i think im gonna post this one public and see if i get any other advice on xander. i think thats it. you can keep everything else to yourself, like your new summer drink and summer song and all that. i love you aspen! ❤️