A letter from Dec 22, 2022

Hi shan. I am back. But i am very sad to say you this. Today I procrastinated a lot. !! I know yesterday I said i would study for 10 hours or so. But you know what today i started the day with Discrete Time signal Processing. I am wondering why am I studying this, and Why should I remember, Why should I learn, Where am I going to use. These thinking went overboard so i started procrastinating, watching youtube. And now, I decided to even skip college. Because I procrastinated for about 3 hours or so, So i need to make up the time to regain the things i lost. Travelling takes 3 hours or so combined. so i decided to skip. You know what, What i did after that,, ?? I started again to watch video about how to learn. Kind of vlogs and i was extremely curious about what people to to study for 12 hours a day. I was really curious about peoples thoughts. And watching sucessful people in the youtube made me so stress. Some people even ear 10k $ a day, just staying at home buying stocks, business, etc. Watching those f**king people made me so stress. I was just thinking, what am I capable of you know the feeling right?? It was very very frustruating. After lot of stress from that. I decided to watch Some korean drama. I hate because it waste a lot of time. But you know that, You wasted a day. So why not just watch kdrama and relax. I watched 10 episodes. It's already 8.30pm You know what, I literally fought with my mind to follow my night routine atleast. Which includes closing all electronic gadgets, brushing, warm shower before bed, drinking water, and setting up laptop for morning and things like that. All done between 8.30-9.00pm But you know,, I was atleast following night sleep routine. Because If i f**k up my night routine,. I will f**k up my next day too. So today i learned things 1. Start the morning routine from the very easy task you can do ( because doing something hard, and feeling bored can f**k up your day) 2. Prepare a roadmap for studying, todo list, time allocation and deadline 3. Make priority (Because I cant do everything at once) 4. If you f**kup morning routine ---- (the day is wasted) 5. Follow night routine. 6. I am just curious about how will i end up in life. I am literally curious. Anyways. Today I fought with my brain to write this letter for you. Because you know that binge watching Korean drama and getting out of it is impossible. I did atleast one thing good for you right? Bye