A letter from November 23rd, 2022

Bishhh it's me again 😂😂 Um...ion know where 2 start but lemme say whts jus running on My mind Sound good? Yeah it's been though these past few wks nd I can't really promise you gr things will get better but I can promise 2 try my Best 2 help me 😇 2 help us ❤ u don't really say out ur problems 2 anyone cause nobody **** cares but I'm here boi 🥲 lyfs 2 short 2 be crying over silly things, if u focus on those then u really won't go anywhere in life,so I wanna tell u gr although u feel unloved there ppl out there who still care 4 u, yeah they don't show it but they're there 🙂 nd they'd hate 2 see u 6 feet under So try to keep strong 4 them 😌 I'm not the best with words but I'd like to say I'm sorry 😔😔 Here's what I'm sorry 4 I'm sorry that you tried so desperately to fix others when your own hands were shaking. I'm sorry that I didn't give you enough time to heal, that I let you seal the wounds of everyone else whilst your own were bleeding. I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt, but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you. I'm sorry that you gave all of your time and effort to people that didn't give the same amount back. I'm sorry that there were nights when you cried yourself to sleep and no one bothered to understand why. And I am so sorry that I did not love you like you deserved to be loved. Im sorry For not putting you first. For putting them first. For making your worth dependant on how they saw you. For making their worth more important than yours. For not allowing myself to forgive you, or you to forgive me. Forgive me. For believing them when they said that something was wrong with you. Forgive me for not believing in you. Forgive me for loving them more than loving you. for not knowing everything, for not being perfect, for stumbling, being afraid, making mistakes, choosing poorly, and not thinking you were worthy of happiness. And please Forgive me if U never get to read this but rather Ur Family will 😔 4 give me If I might End Things For not chasing Our Dream 😔😔💔 But efforts will be Made 2 Make myself Better I promise 🤞😟 Jus Watch it starts today ❤ Signed: PLUG & Myself 🙂