A letter from Nov 22, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey, how's the grief. It's a year since she died. You ok? I don't know who else will comfort you or how you will feel/react but I care about you. I do. Little you cares, future you cares but I know that if you are like me you won't care. I don't care much about myself at the moment. But I do about the little grieving 13 year old who wished her grandma was there for her 13th birthday. For the 13 year old with Christmas without her Grandma. Maybe you won't care, but I do. I know you need to hear that someone cares. Listen, it is ok to grieve, it is ok to not feel too bad. Somedays you'll feel ok somedays you won't and that's ok. This isn't a standard message. I know you know. Love you, so much girl, more than I love me or you love yourself. It's ok, look at the word searches, it's ok if you can't cry. Pictures and voice memos. Memories of the heart. It is ok if you can't cry and it's ok if you do. It is ok. Remember love.