A letter from Nov 06, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hahah ang sakit sakit. idk why im this kind of person. i want to change. i dont want to be like this anymore. why do i catch feelings easily hahahhahahahhhhhhhhhhh. bakeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttttttttt. tapos laging sa mga di pa seryoso hahah umay naman. mangungulit tapos biglang parang wala lang ahahbbhabhahbhahb di wow. kasalanan ko rin naman kasi ganto nga akong tao tapos ang hilig ko pa pumatol sa mga ganon thinking WHAT HUH. whhat the ****. i shouldn't feel thisway about that situation. what the **** DO I EVEN DESERVE THIS. maybe yes hahahahha. ang sakit talaga di ko na alam. ANG SAKIT MEHN. why do i have to go through this. why cant i have something so sure. IT'S ALL ON ME IKNOW. that person owe me nothing pero ****. ang sakit talaga. idk really know why im built this way. onting atensyon,kakagatin agad. WJHAT HE HECK HCHB ANG SAKIT PLS IM SO HURT. i dont want to experience this anymore. i always ******* experience this way. getting happy for a short period of time then getting hurt for monhts. WHAT THE ****. will i even get out of this phase. every fuvking year this happens ajahahhhahhahahhhhhh amg sakit pls. ang sakit talaga. i nver want this anymore. tangina. always hoping for that potential and then everyhting will go downhill. jHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHAHAHHHA ang sakit pls. tanga tanga ko kase. kasalanan ko naman lol anyway. HAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ANG SAKIT WHAT THE **** K DANSNNCNNAJJAdi ko na alam pano ilalabas yung sakit. ang sarap sarap iinvalidate ng sarili ko sa mga gantong pagkakataon but what do i do? im really hurt. para sa ilang araw LANF WHAT THE **** MAGIGING GANTO AKO. PARA SA ILANG ARAW. napagtripan lang naman WHAT THE FUVK.tapos ngayon parang iniiwasan paWHAHAHHHHHAHHA ang sakit mehn. ang sakit sakit. kasalanan korin naman lahat hahahh deserved i guess.