college? and happy birthday too, I guess.

dear me, it's currently 4:30 pm September 26 2022, I have a biology test that I didn't study for because I decided that I'm making you a time capsule, I hope you read this before opening the capsule though. a few months ago I decided to study abroad -hopefully in the UK- and that got a lot of weight off my shoulders. I am studying so I can get accepted into Aramco's studding abroad program. Yet I'm scared. I'm scared that i won't get accepted, I do not feel like I am doing enough, I feel guilty for hoping to have something I feel like i "do not deserve". but I do have faith in you. So let's assume that you got in, I have a few questions: 1- how was the ctc exam? 2- Did you get in? If yes answer the following questions: -How was your first year? -Did you get into a dorm or did you live at home? -is it as scary as I think it is? -did you make any friends? -what major did you choose? -did you get into college (if yes which one and where?) If no, then I'm sorry. I wish I had a way to make you feel better but I can only apologize. I do not know if it was your fault or somone else's but all that matters is that I love you, and I am proud of you no matter what you do. I am closing this letter with one last question. what now?