A letter from Aug 29, 2022

Abby, This is yourself, at the beginning of 8th grade. You most likely are turning the knobs in your head, trying to figure out when you sent this. Today is August 24, 2022 at 8:55 am. I figured I would give you almost like a status update, give you something to smile at. Right now, school is finally getting easier and I am beyond ecstatic for all that is coming. Friends are getting easy to make, and I feel so much more open when I am in a classroom. I honestly feel school is the best part of my life, and that makes me completely, honestly, happy. This year, I look forward to my leadership class, bonding, mending relationships, making new ones, figuring out what makes me passionate, and all of the things that will mold me into the person who will make a difference. I look forward to my favorite subject, math. Math will always have a place in my heart, because it gave me something to hold onto when I was feeling less than joyous. Math gave me passion, and I believe passion is the most important thing. My absolute favorite quote that shows passion is life is, “The Greeks didn’t write obituaries. They only asked one question after a man died, “Did he have passion?” Heads up, that was from Serendipity. We love John Cusack!! I tried out for volleyball, but I didn’t get in. That did push my self-esteem down quite a bit, but I will simply try out again next year. I am currently obsessed with guitar, oat milk, government, piano, Johnny Orlando, homework, iced chai lattes, and all forms of art. Art in the form of songwriting has become so captivating lately and makes me feel like all it’s saying is raw ugly little truths. It feels like it is showcasing all of the terrorizing beauty of life, and I love that. My goals for academics include getting into the Forensics/Biotech Pathway at Enochs, and pushing myself to do things in school that scare me. I am planning on taking some classes at the college during the summer and during 9th grade. My goals for outside school include pushing myself in other aspects of my life, and retraining myself to understand that everything in life has weight. That homework assignment you only got a 92 on does not matter. I truly wish to work on putting myself first, and understanding ITS OK TO NOT BE OKAY. I will do this by going to therapy, being open to change, and talking with others when struggling to reach my goals. Since this is a science assignment, I have to talk a bit about science. A science mystery I wish to understand the reason we exist and the reason we get into drama, fights, and relationships when there are so much more tantalizing or exciting matters in the world. In high school, I want to excel in all aspects of the meaning. I want hard classes, constant progress, and the growth that I have to show. I want to be able to impress myself with my determination, and get the best grade I can. I want to continue dance, get into volleyball or cheer, and join so many clubs to put myself out there. I want to end this on a positive note, so I hope all is as I want it to be when I read this next. If there is anything that isn’t, your past self urges you to fix it. Do the things that scare you more than the things you are comfortable with. Do the things that give you mini heart attacks because you doubt yourself, and do the things that create an excited anxiety within yourself. All the Love, Abby <3 :) <3 :) <3 :)