A letter from Aug 09, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hello there! Today its 9th of August 2022, im 14. when i will be reading this it will be may 6th 2023. Happy birthday .Apparently, if you write these letters where you talk about your hopes for the future, they actually come true, so i guess its good to write this letter. But let's start off negatively. You know, a lot of things went wrong this year. I just hate everything around me. I hate the fact that i hate everything. To be honest, I'm losing hope. People and even myself have always been telling me, that i'm made for success. Although, I'm not so sure about it now. For the past few years my life has been crumbling to pieces. I didn't get to any high school, because the schools are filled with Ukrainian children who have to go somewhere to school too. I HAD ENOUGH POINTS TO GET THERE. THIS IS JUST SO UNFAIR. and i still can't get over it. Me and my mom had to beg a private school to actually let me in their school (they have different recrutation) I wouldn't mind a private school normally, but im so scared that my mo will make me feel bad about myself, by pointing out the amount she has to pay for the school. Right now i just hate everything. also, the school said that they can only let me in to the school when i will go to a profile biol chem ang. I just hate biology. My dream profile is mat-fiz-chem, so i really hope that after half a year or a year im gonna be able to change schools and profile. I just feel like everything is going wrong. it was not supposed to be like this! I'm so ******* miserable. i honestly don't know what to do with myself. and the amount of pressure i feel from my family. i just cant believe it went like this. it wasn't supposed to be like this! Me and my best friend are also going to different schools. ok, enough of venting, lets start talking about my hopes now. In the future i just really hope i will be successful and able to leave Poland. God i hate this country! also, please tell me if we won the important competition. if we did, please apply to the best universities when u graduate. listen. this competition is our life chance, we have 5 years (the competitions are annual) to win it. with us winning this we will make it. i know so. if we win this the doors to the biggest and the best universities in the world will be open for us! imagine a scholarship at oxford! or at tsinghua! we have dreamt about this out whole life, so don't you dare ruin our chance. we have to step it up and study hard. Please! if you ever get discouraged or try to give up! don't! imagine you, in china leading a happy student life. imagine the open doors! just please please! don't **** it up! I'm even more motivated now as i write this letter! JUST PLEASE. NEVER. GIVE. UP. KEEP GOING. WE'RE GOING TO MAKE IT ONE DAY. i will reply to this letter on my birthday :)) I love you, REMEMBER OF THIS COMPETITION! -little me ps. did you dye your hair red and black like you always wanted to? is lucifer- our bunny, our cat and 2 yorkies alive and well? family too? are they alright?