A letter from Jul 15, 2022

hi, keep trying with your gcses. you need to go to oxford, remember? i'm doing terrible now but i'll pick up the pieces and get better, so you can have a better future. i hope i have an adhd diagnosis by the time you see this. i hope i will have come out to my parents about my religious identity, and that they'll have accepted me. keep safe, okay? you'll move out soon. get a job and save money. take care of yourself and stay pretty, fashionable, and intelligent. i might slip back into anorexia this summer, but i hope i have my dream body by the time you're reading this. i hope i will have started at the gym. get better, okay? you'll escape school in a bit. just push through the last bit, don't slack off. then you have summer. take it easy, okay? remember, we're intelligent people. we're gonna get all 8s and 9s. we're going to oxford!! i'm listening to Mockingbird by Eminem right now. such a comfort song. i've been crying a lot recently. stop getting attached to boys on the internet, okay? you don't deserved to be fucked over and hurt by those people. i'm proud of you, okay? i've got you. i hope you have better friends by then. bye :)