Plan Around Inconveniences

Dear friend, The C+ in Intermediate Microeconomics haunts my very soul. I didn't do my best in the last two econ exams, as I've had much inconveniences. 1. Sleep deprived in both second and third/final exam 2. Had to make a whole *** essay for my anthropology class right before my final econ exam. 3. Only had pizza and coffee prior to the third exam as my breakfast. Probably not the best for your brain but the exam is 8 ******* AM instead of 1pm. There's no store open at the time. 4. Some procrastination that removed at least an hour out of everyday. 5. I should've prioritized school much more over work. 6. I should've pissed before the exam, because those last 30 minutes involved my concentration being excruciatingly mutilated by my need to pee. If only coffee wasn't a diuretic. I learned my lesson from astronomy where I had to pee mid-exam, how come I didn't do the same thing here? I've even attended office hours with the professor and TA, yet I still got a C+ that haunts my very soul. This is a black mark on my transcript that I wish never to see again. I hope it doesn't tamper with my ability to study abroad in the London School of Economics, but it very likely will. I'm devastated over my grade, but it's no one's fault but my own. I should've planned for these inconveniences so that I wouldn't have them in the first place. I should've worked on that anthropology essay much earlier rather than a couple days prior to the deadline. I should've balanced my sleep schedule a bit more. I should've ate something healthier prior to the exam. I should've studied with someone, whether that be with someone from my econ class or Susan Leslie (friend) to prevent myself from procrastination. Clearly I need a study partner. If you recall that time I made a presentation for my anthropology class. Late at night, this woman had to move out of the computer area (area had to close) and share the table with me. Since I couldn't procrastinate anymore. I was hyper focused on my presentation, because I thought that doing so may impress her. I was also at a disadvantage with her considering my wardrobe choice at that time. ****** gray jacket and shorts instead of my usual polo and pants. Only thing that might make me feel better and forget about the C+ is some letter of recommendation from the professor. I developed a minor friendship as I participated much in class and sat in the front row. Maybe I should've used the slides he presented for the quizzes more instead of the textbook. Mom questioned me about my score on the final exam on the ride to my university today (I got work). I ended up upsetting her because I refused to say anything about my grade. Even recalling that moment gives me grief considering she pays much for my tuition here. I lowkey want to **** myself and see what the afterlife might look like. I doubt there is an afterlife if it's going to be the same thing as before you're born: nothing. I'm less open with my mom than ever before. She already has information on my location because of stupid Life360, why should she have information on my exam scores? I'm being both limited and freed by mother. I remember my first night here in the university I wanted to hang out with Lauren but mother said no. Guess what! I snuck out my apartment against her wishes and hung out with her anyway. I'm 20 ******* YEARS OLD! WILL SHE REALIZE THAT AT ALL! NO! Then she got frustrated when I told her about my second exam performance being bad. Now I learned to be much more secretive about my **** with her and the family. Their expectations are too high no matter what they say about it. FutureMe, I hope you manage to become better than June2022Me. Thanks, Charles