A letter from Jun 25, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are already healed or maybe already healing. Nag-usap kayo ni James kagabi. Sabi niya na kailangan mo muna mag heal. He also told you that the spark wasn't there anymore. It hurts, of course. I want to be with James. I can imagine a future with him—but I guess I was the only one imagining. I don't know what to do. I don't even have someone to talk to about these issues. My heart keeps beating fast because I can see that this will end soon. I want it to keep going, but if it needs to stop for both of our sake, then I guess I just have to accept it. Be on our own separate ways and fly. Thank you James for the wonderful experience you gave.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Dear Future Me,

I'm happy to tell you na nakawala ka na sa kaniya....

Rfeosuyl ouy dnieg,n uoy ceusbae oayk uelfpoh ixcenpreee ltisl rodgendu gto na agn saw rhda ,nvetulalye erwe aelityr ti ayhpp an a tub adn neictepxg sa. .
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Ouy an oaapb-aungs aatm ysao ecddeid gnyu iyan na. Shi an rin yphpa wno hes' on. Ysug ouy urselco an dah. .
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S!enw trage haev wen ouy eosnmoe nrheoat. Wen is or ifgt ekil of a guy kile cueebsa eajsm newarsed uyo teh tioepsop 'ehs yerapr tihs na fro. .
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Trapner si nwroefdul ulgi a uhsc. Uyo arlpericco gienb si so --- the --- imt,e llwe tsp,a ancmcimotinug hte you sith if teh htta ahve ddsie era is ysug in amtocinnmciuo oen mncmcniuoaiot. .
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Ervy h'se lsoa meurta. Otu ni eht eovl eacuebs em einbg snrigb tihw he mih tebs i. .