him

Dear FutureMe, he's become such a problem that he's keeping you up at night. when you decide to quit him he calls. when he calls your voice gets all soft and oozy and you only giggle and say yeah. when he calls you stare at the id and feel the panic in waves, to pick up or not to pick up... you always pick up. pieces of conversation from all these years have piled up in your mind , theres no room for anyone else. youre driving your friend to her grandmothers grave and youre thinking of the time when he said, "its never been like this with anyone else". youre sick and youre weak, because hes your only but you know youre somewhere in line in his life, you can never quite figure out. quit him. for godsakes quit him. hes everything destructive and bad. it took him just a few months to flip you around, you, your clean mind, undamaged lungs and liver. after all these years it wont be undone. if youre still in love with him, move far away.