A letter from May 29th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hiii!!!!! Today is your 19th birthday!!! You might be getting a few of these today, i really don’t remember. Anyway, quick update stuff i guess. I’m 18 right now, just finished my senior year of high school. It’s bittersweet for sure. I loved a lot of things about my high school years, specifically theatre. This year especially has been awesome. Better than i ever expected. I finally have friends! Like real, we hang out often friends that are NICE to me and not toxic, and i have a whole friend group kinda—there’s just 4 of us (M, S, C and me) in it but STILL. It’s not something I ever thought would happen so it’s SO awesome! I’m kinda scared tho, this year was so good, like REALLY good. I’ve never really had friends like this before this year. I’m scared that it only will have lasted this one year and since we’ll mostly be separated next year the friendship would have fallen apart/weakened. Please please tell me that’s not true. And of course, there’s J. She’s not excaaactly part of the group, but you guys are friends. Good friends. (You know this.) I’m curious how things are with her now. I truly think we have a special connection and that we should stay friends forever. I also think it’s possible that we could be more than friends someday. Which I think would be so awesome but it’s also scary cuz then there’s the chance that you’ll break up and lose each other forever… anyway idk what i’m talking about really. But i think i might be in love with her. Like really. I told A about it because she was in a similar situation too, maybe being in love with one of her best friends. I wonder if we’ve talked about it more. Did you ever figure that out? Are you still in love with her, or do you like anyone else? I wish I could see into the future and know right now. Not that it matters, but here are my ig follower counts right now, i wanna see how much they change. main: 218 spam: 56 business: 115. How’s college? Is it fun? Hard? probably hard. I’m so scared for college. I’m excited, but scared i’ll hate being in school for another 4-5 years. I just need to remember what it’s all for. One day I WILL be a director. Hopefully. :) Also, I hope you’re more comfortable being out to people. I’m WAY more comfortable with it now than i was even a year ago. And I hope our parents are more accepting. If not i hope you still have people in your life that know about and are accepting of that part of you. Some other random things: Do you have a job? Do you like it? Do you still wear cute clothes all the time? Are you gonna move out anytime soon? What’s the best food you have eaten most recently? Do you have any new hobbies? Did you have your first kiss???? Pleeeease tell me you have. But most importantly, are you happy? Do you live in the moment and experience life? Do something today, anything, that will make YOU happy, and tell me about it. And have a happy birthday! It’s your last year of being a teenager, haha. Love you lots and i hope you’re happy, present me