A letter from May 22nd, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I have no motivation for anything. I feel like failure. I gained some weight. I am scare to step on scale. I haven't done my graduation work yet, even tho it was supposed to be finished 22 days ago. I haven't even started yet. I'm going to prom with some loser. I don't want to learn German and leave Serbia. And I don't feel like going to biology collage anymore. I have math test tomorrow and physics as well. Oh and English. I'm not ready for any of them. I don't see a point in doing anything. As I said I have zero motivation. I would like someone who would like me, I feel like I need someone. I feel empty. Ugly. Awful. Purposeless. I need a break. From everything. I wou...no.... I wish I had guts to talk about this on Serbian. But I don't. It feels like it's not that deep and it kinda sounds less serious to me. I don't find this valid you know. I kinda feel like I'm a bit depressed. I lie a lot to my "friends". About a lot of things. I just want a break. Love, PastMe