A letter from Apr 19th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Dear . Firstly I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to mee<3 I hope you are doing well today and that this letter will only boost your mood and confidence. i know i cant really write but i will try my best. So secondly I know you probably forgot and ask yourself how i was doing back then was I talking to everyone? Was I struggling to much? I will try to answear you these questions and I hope you are doing much better then me now. These days i find myself being afraid of dissapointing myself that i will bore them and they wont find me that interesting and funny and talkative how they first met me. I am scared when someone ask me out that i either wont have nothing to say to them or i will just talk about myself because they dont have nothing to say and then it becomes boring for me and maybe also them. I really love to talk but only if someone is listening to me and talking to me back you know? So when someone ask me out i dont try to reject them but i force myself to hang out with them even when i am scared and dont want. However on the otherside I really love going out and when i am out i really enjoy it most of the time with my friends. When i am afraid to ask someone out or i am ill i just stay home and thats when it becomes completely boring for myself and lonely and also i have time so i start to overthink everything about my life if i am okay ... So i really hope now when you are reading it you are much better with going out or staying in. Cause everyone is saying if you cant spend your time withourself you cant enjoy being with someone else. Moreover people call me extroverted and i really love that they think i am extrovert but when i am around extroverted people i am most of the time the one that is listening to them so they found me intrpverted and that is what i hate. I love to be seeking attention from other people and being the main however sometimes for examaple at dance practise when i try to say something they just ignore it and dont respond and talk abput something else and i am the one listening however i really love them cause they make me laugh so hard but sometimes it is just like you know hmmm. So just i want you to know that is okay to be intrpvert or extroverted introvert just be yourself. So now aomething about my love life? I really hope you found someone till birthday but to be honest i dont cause being single is much easier then being taken.. So now in April i am just still thinking about what if i asked him earlier if it would be diffrent but now i understand that he didnt even deserve me back in decembery he was really nice but now he changed and he is complete idiot so i am actually happy that i am not really talking to him cause he ignores me but nevermind i dont like him anymore.{m} And also i just want to ask you if megi and simon is still together or what happened? So do you still draw? or paint? because i hope you are better and also do you go to dance class? Do you have some new friends? Do you still love tp read? Now something positive about myself now so i really love me life if i take it from other angle cause i have perfect family dog brother the best cousin. also we are travelling really often even f i hate airplanes i found them amazing later and yeah also i have the best friends that really care about me and ask me out. I think thats all what i wanted to share with my future self. I really hope you are doing great and that you are healthy and talkative still bye have an amazing life..