A letter from Apr 7th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I am confused about how to start writing this letter. I often feel tired these days. I do not know how it could happen. I am less of a spirit and do not know what I am going to do. I feel like I keep walking on the straight road without even knowing the destination. Could I reach my destination? I am afraid of my future. I am afraid I cannot afford my family's costs. Now, I still depend my life on my parents. I do not have any special things to be proud of. Just an ordinary person. Sometimes, I envy people who have a lot of time. They can do anything that they want. They can spend their life as youth or maybe as a happy college student. I think time is special and precious. Dating? I have never thought about it even for a while. I am too busy with myself. I am tired of myself. I hope I can live just like an ordinary young person who can spend their youth without no regret. This is just my feeling that cannot be shared orally. Thanks to dear future me because I can share my thought here. Note: "In this cruel world, I do not expect too much. Just give me a happy and safe life."