A letter from Mar 14th, 2022

hey how's life going rn? happy birthdayyy!! uhm ngayon? everythings getting better naman satin, you don't cry easily on little things anymore, until now right? we're strong, idk what happen to me, idk but sometimes i miss the old us yung soft-hearted yung kayang umiyak anytime kapag feeling mo mabigat, ngayon idk anymore i don't cry anymore idk i badly need to cry but idk wala e, sobrang tigas ko na ngayon and i kinda hate it, i neeeed to cryyy, idk what happen to me, sobrang tigas na ng puso mo ngayon alpha, we know na thats bad na hindi yon tama, idk i hate myself rn i hate being me rn i hate who i am rn, everything is going fine but alam ko na masama na ako aware ako sa lahat ng kasamaan ko, idk, galit na galit ako sa mundo, sa lahat, sa kahit sino, galit ako sa lahat ng tao ngayon, i hope dito is getting more better sayo i mean i hope you are a better person na today, kasi ako ngayon hindi talaga hahaha sobrang selfish ko ngayon, sobra, i only think about myself, idc if may nasasaktan ako basta okay ako, and thats worse and i know im getting even worse than that, i hope that you're a good person today, i love you alphaa, you can do it okay? everything will be fine, its your birthday don't you ever cry hanggang magumaga ha and please don't relapsed, im 1 month cleann hope it'll continue, i still dk about my collage, i badly want to breakdown rn about that but i fcking really can't :(( i badly want to cry, i need to cry bitch stop being hard!!! but i hope okay na yung sa collage mo ngayon, manifestinggg!!! keep going alright?? you deserve everythings good. Keep fighting!! you'll get through it gandaa!!! if you're with someone new rn or "still" with someone congrats, you know what you really deserve, you know your worth, you deserve everything, we're not settling for less!! I love youu!! Happy 18th Birthday!!! everything will went finee, smileee!!! I'm so proud of you that you're still here. Remember world is already fucked up, there's nothing even important in this world but your happiness, keep what you doing for your self!! you deserve everything, fucked everyone of them, you're doing greaaat!!! Happy 18th!!!