A letter from Mar 12th, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi this is your 17 year old self. How are you doingg. I honestly dont know what to write... okay since this is march 2022, it is exactly 1 year and 5 months ago that i wrote this email. Oh wow. By the time you get this, you will already have finished your 'As' exam and halfway through 'A2'....thats crazy. I hope you are...happy. like, truly and genuinely happy, like you always wanted to be. Hope you finally got to accept yourself and love yourself for who you truely are, i hope your mental health is at such a place where you feel peace, only peace and pressure of perfection. Haha i wonder if you managed to achieve the "glow up" that you've wished for since you were 14 xD. Thinking of that...so you will turn 19 huh? I wonder how that feels. Did you get your braces off?? How does it look? Does it feel as good as i suppose it feels? Can you finally smile fully without feeling embarrassed? Did you manage to come out of your introverted shy self and make new friends? Gosh im dying to know the answers i wish i could meet you. Did you get that iphone13 that you so badly wanted? OH SHOOT YOUR 'AS' RESULTS ARE ALSO OUT!! DID YOU MANAGE TO GET STRAIGHT A GRADESS?? Did you....manage to get a boyfriend maybe??- AAAA WHAT AM I THINKING. This anticipation will probably **** me🥲 Okay jokes apart...i hope you no longer cry yourself to sleep. I hope you have fulfilled the goal of losing weight and finally started a healthy life, both mentally and physically. I love you. Im proud of you. Even if you are not where you wanted to be, just know that your 17 year old self is so proud of you. Thank you for not giving up. Better days are coming💕

Epilogue

15 days later

Well hello to my 17 year old self. I wish I didn't have to disappoint you like it I'm going to rn, but I have to. You had too much...

Ont a sxctipneteao olt rmfo me s!wnyaay ngacdhe. Acn own off ohitwut and ew ilfanyl ogt desmbreasra esy ew sacebr uro yes eenglif eimsl.
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Utb where eth sned is gdoo nwes tath. Did miet rgsdea we iepohn, gte a ,pu ddi rttele uro teh in'dtd sxe,ma gte in ruo llsti era snedfri ayn ew ta we vaeh het ruo nda ew tn'ddi eams uoy fhaudln bdorwfe,niey lowg 'tindd nto we rtiteorvedn etg that taihrtgs wtoer etg.
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St'i tomhsn a uyo sthi utb on life as'wth lotuoko ago we?n i enw atth kwno evdosreicd euopcl. Tath oetwr tbu suhc em 17 item nomsth tohrs hte eveileb ti woh iemt ni treelt a bnee you uyo humc dha pu w'lundot woinggr nseic noly sah i atlemn. Aym esy tub enorgonciit eiidsn os ebnydo esma kloo no awy eht i teh in i aghcend ltils olepitofselerariisp,iehe,lpdsfnn, ash wvie esoduti eth dgaenhc e'vi hm!uc het. Eisxt this, on uy'o' olnerg wetor who. Tneo,ngionk,,lhawolienanioyrielmtdfrsrtecdi and glelit,eitnn rmoe aedhde are ew wno oloc. .
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Not atlren het em mlracie nya msot ot yaphp swa i ot rpttomani enpedd hnigt mkea on. Nigdinf amlls odarnu peassnpih i me streadt thigsn ni. Socrel d'tno ge"niuen" shnpeipas ot i aveeydyr ti flsee nkwo egt tawh llist inworgk btu mi' i,ekl to. Ubt i'st wenh p,esel mdvreohwlee sitll i'm i lony aysd i'm ot cyr nda teerh mfeyls esaebcu nto ecbusea hurt ear. I etl rnelog 💕us on oresht utrh.
Tonyehl,s a si yrsca htsi ldrow. Ronucty 12 iwnhit n,thosm of be sh out tihniw evom eth mshton i'll ugdagntair nad 6. Real dna ipsn,gsa ntgeigt tiem is more sa tyreighenv eomr is. M'i descra. Tle opst rvnee taht i me? udlow btu. Ktae im' nad yeerv ot daery gnrsto sfsit ihhg elclnageh ym twih ahed. Ulorve,sse evah veha ot ot thsee la!one me narle ruo sapspnehi gtuaht eht dan be is, how igthn shtnom pyhpa aecrte ew eon.
It nda eefrbo utueaibfl csayr who rwintig endmiedr cuhm srhee't nobrawi me luyg tosrm taht 'evi msto to so ntahk fro em jsut e,m muhc fo eaahd so ,cievahe hte wylsaa le💕ertt tog ouy dan itsh a. Arf too btu uyo tai'n me heeirt thta yma tno ot i eb ehwer be, wntaed. Od 'lil su ti rof. .
Tebrte sayd deedni o🏻ic🤝nmg aer.

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