A letter from Feb 7th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, My life has changed. Exercise is becoming a habit that will be permanent, God willing. My body feels and overall looks better. I still have a long way to go but it's been promising to see what a little daily exercise can do for me mentally and physically. As far as house and attending the children, those are doing better and better. Housework is almost 2nd nature, although I do have my days... God is another topic entirely. Sometimes I think I'm doing well with Him and then I think I forgot Him but though and though He's always there and that's why I believe in Him and do try to follow Him. I am having such a hard time reading His Word. I've only advanced to Exodus 7 and have gone no further. I don't know what to do but I'll keep praying for guidance. I almost feel instinctively that God wants me to get to know myself better so that I'm able to praise Him better. It makes sense but I have no desire to lose my heading with God to learn more about myself. I fear that I may forget God altogether and I don't want that. I want to learn about myself to better understand myself so as to bring glory to His name. That I believe is truly my goal. Another part of my goal is to be a light to my husband and children so that they'll seek the Lord for themselves. I can't carry them also. I can't even carry myself. Lord, I just pray that You guide me into whatever it is You desire me to do and be. I know You have a plan for me. All I want is to live it.