A letter from Jan 24th, 2022

Dear future me, January, 24,2022 10:31 pm Today is my worst nightmare :( I think chochoi is about to die :( it's so hard being poor and seeing your dog fighting for her life, we have no money to get her to a vet, the vet is gonna cost 1000 pesos and we don't have that money. Last Friday ( January 24,2022) she start her first period (menstrual) I was the first one who noticed that, then Saturday she was not feeling well, then Sunday- she doesn't want to eat and she gets really really pale and sick the hype wasn't there anymore, she used to be energetic, then today (Monday) I woke up this morning coz she starts to vomit, it was 7 in the morning and she just keeps vomiting yellow foam, then at 10 am her vomits turn to white , I did a lot of research, I did everything on how to cure parvo virus with home remedy becoz I can't take her to the vet bcoz we don't have money, mom was also in problem bcoz she don't know where/how to get money to check her up. She's just laying on the ground and only stand up when she need to vomit and oh she poop blood not only once but 4 times , it's so heartbreaking to her like that, in that situation. Tita has some medicine bcoz of her dog, so the only thing we have is the medicine she gave us( idk what its called) but still we couldn't just give her any type of medicine bcoz she's on her period. Bro I am so done with this virus , our first dog (bella) died bcoz of that freaking virus, she was only 4 months old, next was Dasha but she survive because we got a chance to take her to the vet, luckily we have money that time (December 2020) but months later she died bcoz of hit and run. And pls I don't want to lose another dog, chochoi is so special to me, she was the only dog that really sleep next to me, and we're really really close. I feel so useless, I don't know what to do, her sickness is really fatal , she keeps vomiting, pooping blood(more like black blood) , she don't want to close her eyes, it's so hard to be poor, I'm scred bcoz there's 80% chance that I wake up tmr with her already died :( I ******* hate this virus 😖 We both know where so *** endup :( She hasn't been eating for two days but we makes sure that she drinks water but she just vomit it :( Lord I am sorry of I only remember you if I need help pls Lord help may dog to survive but if its her time then I'll just accept it, ik it's going to be so hard but it is what it is. Chochoi I love you so much, I'll mish you forever, I will never forget you :( I am going to miss you sleeping on my legs, you sleeping on my head, when you were little you always sleep on my pillow and you would also sleep on my arm,when you're scared you would always come to me and hid urself , when I move to my sister's bedroom you also moved with me, the first 3 days you're here with us we're playing hide and seek , I would hide at the back of the door and if you can't find me you would run and run until you find me, when you're sleeping and I walk out of the room you would also walk out of the room , and when I am in the kitchen washing the dishes you would wait for me, when I am going outside of the house and I won't let you go out with me you would cry :( you're so beautiful <3 You're the sweetest dog I've ever had, I love you so much :/ There's going to be a lot of changes when you're going to leave us, pls don't leave us :( I am so sorry if I couldn't take you to the vet, I am sorry if we can't do anything to help you. This morning I was having a lot of hope but when I see u in this kind of situation rn I am starting to lose hope you keep throwing up and pooping blood and base on my research when the dog is pooping blood it's fatal and needs to get to the vet immediately. Plsss don't leave us, we're still hoping that you'd survive this virus :( It's so hard to see u in this situation, being in pain. Hoh I am crying so hard rn I can't take this anymore it hurts so bad :( I love you so much chochoi. Plss don't leave us :( End writing 11:14 pm Song apocalypse by cigarettes after sx Plss future me update me in the future.