A letter from Jan 17th, 2022

Wolf Moon In Cancer Lean into comfort and warmth Wolf moon comes in the dead of winter and symbolizes introspection and reflection. Cancer, nesting, emotions to flow in a safe space. Internal struggle, calling for balance, sun in Capricorn, eye on the prize, staying grounded in reality, in opposition in the moon with cancer, leaning into community, allowing emotions to flow, safe warm place... find balance between sun Capricorn and moon cancer by focusing on goals (tattoos) while also holding space for emotions. Mercury goes into retrograde the 14th - 3rd of February. We're being called to bring more intention into communication, relationships, travel, electronic use, slow down more and pay more attention... listen to yourself and be open. Full moon in opposition with Pluto in Capricorn subconscious of wanting truth to come out unconscious conditioning will come to the surface... try to process understand and articulate it. Take things one step at a time. Uranus finally out of retrograde since August 2021 Uranus can act as a wake up call as a spotlight and bring surprises will help bring growth... reflect on any situation since august of 2021 have you been leaning too much into your comfort zone? Reflect and move forward. What should we expect to feel? Inspiration. Reflect on what is and isn't working. Set intentions. Learn about yourself. Heightened emotions, sensitivity, hold space for yourself, be intentional with work flow. Ways to align with this energy. Could be healing to think about what gets you grounded, what brings you comfort? Full Moon Writing Prompts When looking back over the last two weeks of this lunar cycle what are you most proud of? Is there anything you're ready to release? I'm proud of the artwork I have finished. I finished two flash sheets for my portfolio and applied for an apprenticeship even though I was feeling extremely overwhelmed by the emotions I've been experiencing with/for Parker, and trying not to allow past experiences with Keith dictate how I feel about this relationship. I'm also proud of myself for going out to eat less and spending more time at home, preparing meals. I'm also proud of myself for going to the gym more regularly and I'd like to give myself credit for the amount of work I have been doing on my body and my mind, as well as pushing forward toward a fulfilling career while also trying to navigate a new, exciting, confusing and scary relationship... Looking at the holistic health wheel what practices within one or two of these realms bring you the most comfort? All of them are equally important to me... but the one that gives me the most comfort has got to be having a strong support group/core group of friends, and also grounding down and taking care of my physical and emotional health... by journaling, writing songs, going to therapy, doing yoga, or drawing. Our emotions can be information for what's going on under the surface, how do you hold space for your emotions to flow through? I usually try not to let my emotions flow through... but meeting Parker and starting to feel for him has made it impossible for me not to get emotional. I feel like a fucking baby, and it's hard for me not to judge myself for feeling sad, scared, excited, in love... the way that I do. My therapist told me it's a normal to get attached to someone who tells you they really like you, and you go on dates with and have sex with... but I feel like society tells women to be strong all the time and not to fall for bullshit and whatever... and if a man moves away from town that you're just supposed to be okay and move onto the next guy... but I really really really liked Parker... and I am already talking about him like we're over... and that hurts. We might get together this weekend because he offered to. But I can not stop doubting his words. He makes me so nervous because since he said he MIGHT BE moving he seems to be pulling away... and He's so fucking hot I know he could have anyone he wants and it makes me nervous simply that he doesn't text me for a few days. I'm trying to be more removed from the whole situation, or at least seem so- so he doesn't think I'm clingy. And also texting someone and not receiving a text back makes me feel vulnerable and stupid so I'm not going to keep subjecting myself to it... the way I look at it is he'll text me when he gets back to Charlotte or he won't . And if he does I'll talk to him about my feelings in person over the weekend and if he doesn't I guess that's the end and I'll have to find my own closure. I've been crying on and off for the past week or so because I'm so scared he's going to leave and it's hard not to judge myself for it. So I'm trying not to and just allow space to allow myself to grieve this possible loss, and also all the feelings I feel along with it. Sadness, feeling stupid, feeling hopeless, immense wanting. I deserve someone just like Parker... but a Parker who's going to stay and it's so hard to get so so so so close to what I want in a partner and then have it taken away... Megan says if he moves I can go visit him I'm just so afraid he's going to ghost me. What are the best ways for loved ones to support you while feeling low? How do you support loved ones when they are feeling low? Literally just spend time with me and ask me how I'm feeling and then try to do something fun and distracting together... or eating a meal together... or anything. I'm so tired of being alone... idk if I can take it much longer. I really want a partner so bad. But a good one. "Somebody as fly as me." as Bruno would say... I'm so fucking sad. I hope a miracle happens.