A letter from Jan 12th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hello, i'm suppressing my emotions. i'm not dealing with them well. i try to forget the bad things. i have no friends. i want friends but i have trust issues so yeah it's hard to get near people. i have a hard time trusting people. i'm just going to keep praying for God to bring me friends. i'm tired of not having friends for 3 years. i wish i had someone to talk to that i can trust. i wish i was confident and this mouth thing would leave me. i just want friends but i don't know if my heart really wants it because i'm dry. i don't feel anything. i can't even cry but no i'm not depressed. i've just been suppressing my emotions. trusting people is hard because of what my previous friends did ( i think it's rakhya and stephanie) lol it would be nice to have people i know i can trust. it would be nice to have someone to talk to. i just want to know these people are from God and thy are real and not talking behind my back or fake. anyways, i hope you have friends by this time. if you don't, don't worry yourself too much. i'm not disappointed in you because it's not really your fault. one day, you'll have friends and be confident and trust them even if it's not right now. also if that doesn't happen in the future, it's still alright adelaide. life is gonna pass anyway. no need to cry and stress over things that are going to pass away. the world is ending and one day you'll be in heaven and you'll be happy because nothing you want can compare to it. don't stress. focus on your salvation. it's ok. i'm 14 right now. by the time you read it, God willing, you'll be 16. please don't stress and be happy because it's ok. i'm used to it.