A letter from Jan 1st, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It is currently 1st January 2022. Last year I did not complete my new year resolutions however I did walk a marathon on 6th April for a cancer charity. I actually walked 30 miles in a day. I feel like towards the end of the year I think of the things I didn't complete however I should also be reflecting on the things I did achieve. I am saying this because for you it is the end of the year and you may have not achieved everything that you wanted too but that does not make you a failure, sometimes we achieve the goals we set out to do, and sometimes we don't. There is a lesson in every failure so make sure you reflect on what happened, pick yourself up, and keep going. The one main lesson I learned in the 2021 year is to forgive yourself, you will make mistakes, massive ones. Last year I cheated and was an awful person from September to December, but that doesn't mean that I am an awful person at heart. The lesson I learned from that is you have to make a choice and think about what you want, not that you just want choices. I have been told that I have been selfish this year as I was just putting myself first. I know I need to adjust my moral compass however don't let people's opinions of you bring you down. I am not going to set any massive goal I just would like you to be a step closer to being the best version of me than I am now. I am dating ben right now and everyone hates him, I should probably break up with him but I don't want to. Are you still dating him or have we moved on. I need to work on trust and my anger, not every action needs a reaction. I know I've struggled with it lately. Have you learned to control it? In 2021 my best moments have been walking the marathon, meeting Isla, and going to London, and Christmas. During 2021 I have learned some valuable lessons and these are them: Protecting yourself doesn't mean to leave before you get left, it means to leave as soon as you get disrespected. Always forgive people even when you don't want to and even if they don't ask for it. Never hate people or react to people's actions, their behavior is a reflection of them, just walk away so it doesn't happen again. Only give people 2 changes, 1 is a mistake, 2 is a choice. Healing isn't about losing weight it is about accepting your past traumas, experiencing them, then letting go of the emotion that you hold to it. This year I have lost friends and have lost myself. I have learned that losing yourself is a horrible experience but it is nessisary to become who you need to be. Sometimes you need to break before you can fly. I hope you are well and that you have had a lot of happiness and learned the lessons you needed to in 2022. life is tough but i know it will all be okay in the end. Good luck and see you next year Lots of love your past self xx