A letter from Nov 28th, 2021

Happy Day! If by now nothing has happened, you really need to just forget about it and move on if you haven't already. All its gonna do is ruin your mindset and you can't have that for A-levels. You already messed up your mocks. don't mess up the next ones because there's a very high chance that they're actually gonna count. I know you already know all this but its better that you get reminded by well...yourself than anyone else. Your hair better be good lol And make sure you have gained muscle. If you haven't spoken you friend in a while speak to them. And make sure coursework is set to be sent off. I need you to be doing past papers. whether you like it or not they're the best way to test your knowledge. No cheating or copying or anything, it has no use in the final thing. And be happy. please. Make sure you're happy above almost anything else. There are so many more things to be happy about in life than to be sad about. The only reason you focus on the sad things is cause they're easy to find - because they're so little compared to the things that make you smile. Those are so enumerated that you blur it all into one - so appreciate it more and then maybe you'll realise how much happier you actually are. You can be happy that aot is almost here. Or that ahem...united are doing amazing...right? Or that family is hopefully all good and you get to see them more frequently. I know she was a big part of your life, more than you made it out to be. more than she knew. But she was a part of your life. which means you have control over that. Because you have control over what you let affect you. So you can let go of it and I know by now you're closer to it than ever before but still, its not enough because its been what....6 months and you're still holding on? that could mean that you're always gonna hold on, And that's not a good thing. So yeah - coursework, past papers/questions, Applications for ucas and internships, and being happy and having a positive and good mindset that isn't brought down by anyone, including yourself. You have a stronger mind than most of the people you know so don't think you cant do what others can. because you can, and you can do it better than them. And I wasn't to see that in you. a drive. a power. we stay hungry .we devour. also another thing. hypocrite ironic whatever - it is what it is what happened happened. you cant control the past or the future only the present. So just take small steps, and soon you'll find you've walked a mile away from the area you dread. oK byE And make sure to write in the diary journal thing its not for you its for your kids. Get shoes tomorrow if you haven't already.