A letter from Nov 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey, so this is me from November 2021, no clue what the heck life is doing with me. Everything sucks, like EVERYTHING. I can't say anything is good, if I say it, it gets spoiled too soon. Why? Actually, why won't ***** choose me? Is there something's actually left to live? I am under verbal abuse, I am not at all fine mentally, I fear losing the people I love if I continue with this mentality. How, how much more of this is left? Just suffering, and pretending everything to be fine? How the hell do I forget my past wounds and scars, and why should I? My pre-boards are here in like 20 days, and I am trying to be okay with them. I am sending this somewhere in April because by then I hope you might have been done with grade 10, and school life completely. I know, it's hard, it's very fuxking hard to cope with this stress and your panic attacks are worse, but I hope when you receive this, hopefully, things are fine. I want you to embrace the upcoming life, though it's very much modest of me to anticipate that. Well, more than this seeming as a depressive read, I want to make an inquiry if everything's okay because everything right now feels as if in a stretched version and very elongated for an unknown amount of time. I want to check in, gosh now I should stop being so sad. Never mind, I hope you the best, Believe In Yourself >>3. Love, Anisha (November 2021)

Epilogue

about 4 hours later

dear past me,
damn! i feel and understand the pain you went through. it just gave me a revival of how sad things were back then, literally...

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Ctlyxae blodo h)ahha is edterpcdi (-sp royu hawt oyu eypt oag arsye b!v-ae 6.
Loe,v.
220)2 nasahi ialrp(.

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