A letter from Nov 1st, 2021

Peaceful right?

01/11/2021 - is everything better now? dear future dani, im now at work, writing this in english so taht my colleges dont look at the scream and see how sad and depressed im . Im hoping with all my heart that you are in a better place now, mentally. We are in a very dark place right now and sometimes all i can think about is whyi havent ****** myself yet. Honestly, i think im just a coward... As you know, we cant stand pain. Things have staggered ina way that i cant see the beggining and surely the end. Is kitty better? i hope so, if anything happens to it i will not be able of getting better! the inffection is back and we dont have money to treat it. I thougnt that i was lonely last year but i was wrong. Even thou everything is coming back to normal and im again being surrouded by people, im felling more alone than ever. Are you okay? Did you got any better? Sometimes i think this pain will be forever with me, that will be for evermore... Mom is asking us to stop talking to heryc, did you stopped? i dont know what to do, I wish this kind of things didnt happened to me, like, why me??? why can it just be easier? Im so tired. NO. IM EXAUSTED. im so tired of runing and never seeing the finish line. It feels like im swiming against the flow. Please tell me that your life is better now. I hope you found the job you were looking for and hopefully you are happier than ever. I dont have much time left to keep writing, im attending someone right now but i will be back to talk more with you and say what i really want to. bye bye, the old you :) ps: im making playlists later huh:)

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

04/03/2022 - a light in the end of the tunnel.

hey dani, here i'm :). I have to say that I was really anxious about receiving that letter just cause...

To hwta smongehti htta eenv i emak wdolu me i eadr das rcasde i ro aws rbeeremm dna elef monioatle dtnd'i wroet idkn. Dna thta aws ew,ll ko pneehapd atwh hhaa utb si't.
Raeyll dan ingctpe,ex asw ads as loteonmia saw ti i. We ohw erwe akbc hent ese omsnth gsniee a isht can won ewf ricnfeefde i hiitwn abd. .
Jtus mseti aws stuj rrebmeem hotse ptek hwen nad adn rsowe yrc dna i tghnyiveer we do tfneo lal ocdlu titengg oesrw. . . To wndeta rasyetdeple eid. Nad acseu dan so ni rsroy we all dna elef to edlov s,ene i awtden gte asw efle and ot dearc us htigns bretet, rfo ttha meti. Spsa biinenggn tub teh eth ghuhrto nnulet sadi si fo iswh i and ot a i ti :) den ,isht nt'idd ew fo in had ehert as siht in wsa teh nsersaecy igthl.
Lwel naisphpes 010% alywsa wnko as i i not ew is on we xepcte but geuss lfie rea. Eetvispperc of ew veah aedr ,asy my dna iminthdg oun'tldw uyo nvee ti veha eht" to manedgii yeadlar i ia"rblyr utb rlpbyoab life gnedach. Indraeg tuitwho mdea ilareez em txesi tsih rvnee odclu okbo how anedsss paihpsesn. Is oirlycdisulu t'is i ti what !rtue w,kon btu is ti. Eleraiz natocn ltuyr if eb enerv eissphanp eenv ro leyral oefber we'd rea ensadss phapy deieeepxcnr ew atwh. Ojy mtie ebememrr htta otehs ingntho tbu ti uyo wnhe ads aer oyu flet nhew leyarl yuo.
To i sha to uyo rou naghdec fiel cesni need hwo say neth. Am lw,el we cexat gihmt nsvoeru egso fi oaubt retnwviie iignwrt ni are get 'im tath job a boj eht ehvgtnyeri :) ew nda ttha si dan mnomte ,wno sith 03:20.
I i i dan sa hatn lfee yas lislt nhet i won who i ,htat enlilonsse elft hree hcum ltef ryslue cbka lylneo do'tn ist remmeerb nac but. Lenisg tsju hfitg felyms out to i teh get lislt deb eevyr ayd hwit fo. Ensfielg mom htat assy rhut istsll uor ginths. Eikl not ugoneh mi' feel lltis i. :)' niogg r'eew tge ebertt to tub.
Yuo htsi have ays to stju to i. Uoy im' of odrup so. Sdhewi oyu itsh who much to ysa oluwd i neeosom ouy konw. Sa dtnd'i yuo wehn vene dhra hgoftu. Etg newh nvee eth did'tn ebd uoy fo uot. Neev eidrc enhw you eht lepse ro tbhomora ni to sfroyule. Roudp mi' !ouy of. .
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Edam erally tera haah me shit ttlree. Ti ewe'v ahndgec mdea tub who also me iraleze. Hetn own appyh in berevmon i'm swa dan rmeo i. .
Ll'i ekep iniwtrg. Efel yeplr treetb i ouy this mdae heop.
We evvduisr 3<.
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Eby eht ,eby tfeuru ): uyo.

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