A letter from Oct 31st, 2021

Lmao I feel like shit I just feel like I’ve been told to fuck of by someone who I thought I was super close with for 6 months It doesn’t even feel like I’ve lost a relationship, more like a friend I feel like I’ve lost the person I knew I feel like I’ve done something so horribly wrong yet I haven’t I’ve never been given a reason, I don’t know who what where or why I don’t know if I’m thinking wrong if she’s in the wrong It just seems to be getting worse How is it my fault The way I even think Of her has changed so much I’ve got so much feeling of anger and hatred towards her now I don’t know I don’t know if I’ll ever know I’ll get over it one day, but I still will just never know It feels like I’ve been tricked, lulled into this trap and then just shot Told that I just need some time, told we’ll be good friends, told that everything’s fine between us, then just ignored and told to fuck off I want so much to not care But I can only try so hard I want to give up