A letter from Oct 21st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, it's all gonna be alright I know it's scary to grow up. I know you're afraid and it's okay to be afraid. Life showed you that. And I've always been scared for everything and everyone. But, one day life showed me that these things happen. You're going to meet bad people and you're going to understand why natural disasters are named after them. They'll take the most beautiful places and make them ugly because, whenever you go there, you think of them and you think of the hurt they caused. But bro, we all grow up and we all get older and we all forgive even though we might not notice that we're forgiving. One day you wake up and it doesn't hurt as much, yes it'll always be there. But, it's not the same. Sometimes thats a good thing, sometimes thats the best thing that could ever happen. Just know that wherever you go, or whatever you do or whoever you become, somebody loves you. Doesn't even matter if its now or if it's tomorrow, or if its a year from now. Someone loves you and/or someone is waiting to love you. Someone is waiting to give you all that they have. Maybe this situation isn't working out for you now. But maybe the next one will. I know they say that there isn't always tomorrow. And I guess they're right, there isn't. But at the same time, there is. Despite the bad things that happen in your life, you have to be content with it. Because it is YOUR LIFE regardless. You only have one from what we know. Just go out there. Just have fun kid. I know that you think the bad out rules the good but, count your blessings. There's so much good in your life that you let by get unnoticed. Look at all you accomplished stupid. You're still so young and though you could die whenever, your life has meaning and you have helped so many people smile. I am so proud of you. Cherish what you have right now because everything's going to move on so fast. You, my love, are me. I'd be so lost without you. Don't let anyone let you lose me. I know you take on so much stress and I need you to stop or reduce it because. If you let stress control you. You won't have a life to live. Bad things happen and you can't do anything about it. The past can hurt. But you can either, run from it or learn from it. I'm glad I'm still trying. I can't be perfect and I'm still learning. I'm still growing and I deserve love as much as anyone else. I'm so proud of the little girl who used to cry at 4am because she felt replaced, because she made herself irreplaceable. We're all trying. We can't be expected to be great at everything. I'm so glad I chose to have the people around me that I do because they're good. They make me happy. Don't be so quick to blame others okay? As bad as it gets you have to remember, they too have a story. They have something that happens in their life that you don't know about. Just be kind. It costs nothing but does a lot. You don't know who's going through what and you might just save someone. But that does not mean you have to be loyal to those who aren't even sure about you. You don't get to put yourself 2nd anymore. You're our priority. Anytime you see yourself giving more energy than you receive, step back. If you focus on the hurt, you will continue to suffer. If you focus on the lesson, you will continue to grow. Take breaks, everyone gets tired, keep a distance from those u don't trust. AND GIRL I KNOW THAT YOU FEEL GUILTY FOR TAKING CREDIT EVEN WHEN YOU DID THE WORK. YOU NEED TO TAKE IT OKAY?? Do the best you can because I know you can do anything you feel like. Make everyone wonder how you are all you are. Happy birthday, I love you. Make me proud.